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the Book of Revelation is a chiasm

October 23, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net Leave a comment

The book of Revelation is both a chiasm and a bifid. [Ellis Skolfield does a great discourse on bifids and chiasms.] A bifid is just a piece of literature or writing that is separated into two equal or almost equal parts. I’ll give you an example (Isaiah) from Ellis’s teaching.

[This is from one of his teaching slides that are public domain AND he gave me permission on the phone to use anything of his to teach.]

So a bifidic writing will tell a story or carry a theme, then repeat it again in the second half of the document. You can do as many themes in a section as you want, but the second half will carry the same themes, and the same number.

A chiasm is a pattern of writing where a series of statements are made, then repeated in reverse order. It’s almost like a poem that doesn’t rhyme. Once you start to see it, you’ll be able to spot it in other places in Scripture. Here’s a simple example of an AB/BA:

Psa 68:15- 16 The hill of God is as the hill of Bashan; an high hill as the hill of Bashan. Why leap ye, ye high hills? this is the hill which God desires to dwell in.

A. The hill of God is as the hill of Bashan (God’s hill)

B. an high hill as the hill of Bashan (high hill)

B. Why leap ye, ye high hills? (high hill)

A. this is the hill which God desires to dwell in (God’s hill.)

Here’s an example of an ABC/CBA from Mark 5:3-5

A: Who had his dwelling among the tombs (Tombs)

B: and no man could bind him, (Subdue him)

C: no, not with chains: (Chains)

C: he had been bound with chains, (Chains)

B: neither could any man tame him. (Subdue him)

A: And always he was in the tombs (Tombs)

Chiasms can be in short sentences like these, or can be in chapter form. One of my favorite teachings from Skolfield is “Daniel isn’t in chronological order”. And because I rarely take anyone for their word when studying the Word (especially if I don’t know them or their credibility), I took the time to look each foreign ruler up and compare and contrast them with the book of Daniel. Skolfield was right. Daniel was written in chiastic form, not in chronological order as the events happened, and it looks like this:

A. ch.2 The Great Image — 4 Gentile Nations

B. ch.3 The Fiery Furnace — God’s People in Tribulation

C. ch.4 King goes Insane — Gentile King Judged

C. ch.5 Belshazzar Killed — Gentile King Judged

B. ch.6 The Lion’s Den– God’s People in Tribulation

A. ch.7 The Four Beasts — 4 Gentile Nations

This was a common writing style for the Hebrews/Israelites, and they would have been able to pick out messages and meanings by recognizing repeating patterns. It’s Hebrew, not Latin, so English speaking readers are most likely unfamiliar with it.

When I was in my dining room study season, I was poring over the book of Revelation. I had written it out on butcher paper and hung it from my ceilings down my walls so I could see the whole book in one place. Then I just studied it, looking for patterns. At one point I began scratching my head (figuratively) because I noticed overlapping of themes, and I began asking myself if they were separate events or single events repeated in different form? How many “great earthquakes” were there supposed to be??? Then I began laying seeming patterns down.

I didn’t want to take liberty where I shouldn’t, but I had never heard anyone in all of my time studying and reading and listening, talk about overlapping repetitive themes in Revelation. So I began asking God if I should overlap them and consider them singular events instead of multiple events. I can’t remember how He led me to Skolfield, but it was his bifid/chiasm teaching that broke this open for me and showed me how to apply it.

There are several good teachers on chiasms. Skolfield has his chiastic outline for Revelation, but it didn’t make as much sense to me as some others I found. Another great teacher on Revelation and who has a chiastic outline for Revelation that was easier for me to follow is Walter Veith. He is an astounding teacher. You could get lost in his videos for weeks!

Here’s a slide presentation of bifids and chiasms from Skolfield: https://vdocuments.pub/ellis-skolfields-teaching-outline…

A great overview is his book “Daniel is out of order” that you can find on this page: https://www.ellisskolfield.net/books

If you want to dig more into this, look at Skolfield’s works and do a generic internet search with “chiasm revelation” and just start looking through them. I did some work at making my own chiasm outline for Revelation, but I still think it needs tweaked.

We have to get out of our traditional mindsets from a western education, both secularly and religiously, if we want to grasp some of the applications and truths of Scripture. As Americans instructed in a lineal language (Latin originated), we think lineally. The Hebrew language is a whole language. The characters are letters, numbers, words and even pictures. They have idioms that are used prolifically throughout Scripture that we take literally with no real understanding of what they are referring to. (This is one of my favorite lessons to teach on. e.g.: “the rod” is an idiom for “Torah”. Now read, “Spare the rod, spoil the child” and contemplate what it means. “No one knows the hour or the day” is an idiom for Rosh Hashanah. Now revisit Christ’s words quoting that. There are dozens if not hundreds of these in the Bible.)

I’ll post some examples of chiasms. I’m not endorsing any one chiasm. I’m still working on those myself, and I’m putting them out there for consideration or a starting point.

I don’t agree with any one teacher anymore than I expect anyone to agree completely with me. I take the parts that make sense (to me at the point of understanding I’m in), and I table or reject the ones that don’t.

When I was talking with Ellis Skolfield several years ago (maybe 2014?), I was asking him some questions. I’ll never forget one of his answers, “I don’t know. I haven’t figured that out yet. Maybe you will and you can tell me!” No one on this earth has the full understanding. Most of my learning and subsequent teaching is from putting pieces and parts together from a wide assortment of teachers and children of God. There are some gaping holes I’m still trying to find answers for. It’s work, but it’s rewarding.

To restate, I don’t have this whole thing figured out by a long shot, (but I feel like I’m closer than I was). I may have to renege or tweak some things later that I’m sharing now as I continue to learn. I’ve literally been waiting years until I get it all figured out before I share. But I probably won’t get it “all figured out”. So I’ll share what I have and we can sharpen each other. You’ll most likely have some angles and information I don’t have that will help me on my way, and vice versa. It’s almost like WWG1WGA

Be blessed in your pursuit of Him.

Here are a couple random breakdowns of Revelation in chiastic form. There are a lot of variations. These are just examples of how some others have seen it. There are a lot of variations.

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On the topic of Israel… Part two

October 21, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 2 Comments

Part Two

On the topic of Israel, I’m not sure where to start. It’s a big topic, so let’s start with some definitions.

HEBREWS…. Until (King) David killed Goliath, the descendants of Abraham were referenced in the Bible as Hebrews, and were known to the onlooking world as Hebrews. (Why? Why weren’t they called Abrahamites or some other derivative?)

The identifier “Hebrew” comes from Eber, the descendant of Shem. (I learned this from Steve Collins.) So for hundreds and hundreds of years, the descendants of Shem through Eber were known as Hebrews.

[Eber was the great grandson of Shem. Abraham would come six generations from Eber, and nine from Shem.]

SEMITE…. Shem is one of the three sons of Noah, and is where we get the term Semite. Shem, being one of three progenitors of humanity, would mean roughly a third of humanity would be Semites.

ISRAEL/ISRAELITE…. The first reference to Israel (and Israelites) is in Leviticus, or the time after the Exodus. Even in Egypt the descendants of Abraham were known as Hebrews. In 1Samuel you’ll read that the Philistines referred to the descendants as Hebrews. After (not yet King) David killed Goliath, you don’t see the word Hebrew again except for once in Acts (6:1) and twice by Paul (2Cor. 11:22, Phil. 3:5).

Consider the book of Hebrews in the New Testament and the content and themes of that book: the deity and sovereignty of Christ; the inferiority of the law and the superiority of the new covenant; the superiority of the blood of Christ (over the blood of animals and even the martyrs); the superiority of the priesthood of Christ (over the Levitical priests and Melchizadek); the superiority of the heavenly Jerusalem over the earthly one, the heavenly Mount Zion over the earthly Mount Sinai, the heavenly kingdom over an earthly kingdom…. Isn’t it interesting that the book that spells out the superiority of the new covenant in Christ is addressed to the ancient bloodline heirs of Eber, the great grandson of Shem? The word “Hebrew(s)” is not to be found in the entirety of the book, and yet it was specifically titled as such.

As you probably know, Abraham had Isaac. Isaac had Jacob who was renamed Israel, and his twelve sons made up the people group come to be known as the Israelites. They eventually lost the name of Hebrews in common vernacular.

JUDAH… There were three kings of Israel before Israel split. Under King Solomon’s heir, King Rehoboam, the nation of Israel was split from the twelve tribes of Jacob. The ten tribes of the north were known as Israel, with Samaria as its capital. The two tribes of the south were known as Judah with Jerusalem as its capital. Jerusalem was destroyed by Nebuchadnezzer in 587 B.C. and its people went into captivity.

JEW(S)…. You first see the word Jew in Esther, and the term Jews in 2Kings 25 at the time Nebuchadnezzar was ruling over the conquered land of Judah. Jew(s) is a term for one from the country of Judah (nationality) or from the tribe of Judah (bloodline).

By the time Christ came onto the scene, the ten tribes of Israel were scattered abroad (well into Europe by now), and only the remnant of Judah remained in the ancient land of Judah and the city of Jerusalem.

The scattered Israelites traveled over the Caucasus Mountains (dividing western Asia and Eastern Europe between the Black Sea and Caspian Sea). They were unknown to the people in that region at that time and so the people nicknamed them Caucasians. They were an enormous people group. They split up (mostly by tribes and families) and scattered across Europe (and other places), and yes, to the islands of Ireland and modern day UK. (All of this is so fascinating and can be studied in Steve Collins’ work.) I’m leaving a lot of details out, but I’m trying to focus on names of people groups right now.

By the time Christ arrived on the scene, the only people of the Israelite bloodlines in the land were mostly Jews (of the tribe or nation of Judah, also of the tribe of Benjamin, but would be considered Jews by historic nationality).

The reason I point all of this out is because the names are convoluted in both the church and media. Modern day Israel was formed for the Jews, not Israelites. The Jews are but one tribe (or two if you count Benjamin) of the ancient Israelites. Modern day Israel was formed as a homeland for displaced Jews, not Israelites. It’s a misnomer.

ANTI-SEMITE…. When modern day Jews, media and everyone else cries “Anti-Semite”, by definition that means “anti-Shem”. The descendants of Shem make up roughly one third of the earth’s population. Yet “anti-Semite” has come to mean criticism of anyone with a Jewish name or claim.

I just want to make this clear because it’s really not.

To complicate matters more, the modern “Jews” are more or less NOT from the ancient bloodlines and nation of Judah. The population of Jewry is minuscule in the scope of the world’s population.

KHAZARIA…. I wrote a paper on a people group from ancient Khazaria who adopted Judaism almost seven hundred years after Christ was on the earth. The Khazarians were primarily of Turkish and Mongol descent. I wrote about it in this article, so I won’t get into the details here.

( https://www.eternalissues.com/?p=170 )

Fast forward to save time, that people group (Khazarians) would later become linked to the Bolshevik revolution, the execution of the Czars of Russia, the Marxist and Communist revolutions, and were injected into America’s governmental infrastructure, just to name a few.

In a letter to Jewish scholar and foreign secretary of Spain, Hasdai ibn Shaprut, the Khazarian King Joseph boasted that their people (Khazarians) descended from the family of Togarma, the son of Japheth. [Togarma represents all Turkic peoples.] So the Khazar “Jews” aren’t even Semites.

GOG/MAGOG…. In multiple ancient texts the Khazars were known as the “sons of Magog”, and the land of Khazaria as the land of Gog and Magog.

UKRAINE…. Where was ancient Khazaria? The ancient land of Khazaria is modern day Ukraine.

There’s extensive research in numerous places tracing the Khazarians from their ancient land to the various places they migrated. I won’t get into that here, though I’ve already made some references.

The ancient people of Khazaria moved throughout history in subversive roles. (There is so much research on this. Start with Koestler’s book and move on from there.) They adopted the title of Jews and inserted into a number of nations and people groups.

They first settled in Poland, and later culminated in Germany as well. (Koestler gets into this.) There are a number of actual Jews who decried this people group. American Jew Benjamin Freedman’s famous 1961 speech at the Willard Hotel can be read here,

http://highlanderjuan.com/…/Benjamin-H-Freedman-Speech…

or listened to here

https://archive.org/…/benjamin-h.-freedman-speech…

I’m going to skip a lot of history, testimony, and World Wars I and II drama for now – but it matters. So we can circle back to it later, or you can and should research it yourself.

Allegedly there are fourteen million Jews in the world. That’s 0.2% of the entire world population. Is it odd to anyone else that “anti-Semite” has become a global talking point? [Comparatively, allegedly there are 2.2 billion Christians (or 31.5% of the world population, almost a third of the world), and 1.9 billion Muslims (or 25% of the world population, a fourth of the world). Fifteen percent are Hindu and 6.6% are Buddhist. Seven percent are atheist.]

How is 0.2% of the world population dominating the world talking points? (And don’t even start me on the number of Jews that own/run the media, Hollywood, banks, etc. How did “anti-Semite” come to mean “anti-Jew”?)

WHY did it come to mean anti-Jew? WHEN did it come to mean anti-Jew? How did one third (Shem bloodline) of the world come to be narrowed down to 0.2% (Jew)?

[You may think I’m oversimplifying it. You may argue that they just use “anti-Semitic” because the Jews spoke/speak Hebrew (a Semitic language). But Arabic is a Semitic language and there are 3.4% of the world that speak it, and anti-Semitic doesn’t refer to Arabs. In fact, more than 330 million people in the world speak a form of Semitic language. I don’t think it has to do with language, even if they “say” it does.]

I think all of these terms have been convoluted to force a narrative and an agenda. The same people who have been used to help the enemy deceive the world, have hijacked the Word of God to create a narrative that’s a twisting of the pure and original word and intent. “Did God really say?” Look at how the enemy has worked throughout Biblical history, the one we have a written record of. It has always been about subverting the word of God.

If there’s a people group intent on leading the world into a globalist agenda, who would be their greatest adversary? Who would be their greatest threat? A people who follow God, not man. The enemy has very little difficulty deceiving those not interested in walking with God. Who would push back on a system that leads humanity into bondage, into serving man and man’s systems? A people who serve and follow God. The Israelites showed us that over and over.

How can you bring your enemy into your camp? By deceiving him/her to think it’s their camp.

How could the enemy bring God’s people into his plan? By deceiving them to think it’s God’s plan.

If we will know them by their fruit, then look at modern Israel’s fruit.

I’m telling you, the religious spirit is cunning. It masquerades as works and words of God, but it twists them. It misrepresents them.

Let me put it this way, if the prophecies have long been fulfilled, if Christ has ruled and reigned, if the devil has been loosed to deceive the nations, what would that look like? We can only best guess, I get that. But best guess it. What would it look like? Would the devil be able to deceive a people who sat under the peaceful and righteous reign of Christ? How could he? Yet the prophecy says he will.

I’ll get into that in my next post, but I’ll tell you this. I think he would keep the children of God occupied, distracted and in fear, by putting the prophecies back out into the future. How could he do that if they were already fulfilled? He’d have to hide their fulfillment to some extent. Wouldn’t projecting Israel as the apple of God’s eye be the best place in the WHOLE WORLD to hide??? If we thought it was the sacred ground, wouldn’t we do exactly what we (institutional church) are doing now? Side with the corrupt politicians and bankers and war cartels to support said people in the name of our religion?

Why is the center of America’s money laundering in Ukraine? Why is it replete with human trafficking, organ harvesting, bioweapons, etc. and why does modern day Ukraine have ancient Khazaria’s crest on their flag??? If Revelation 20:8 is cryptic (and it is), what in the world does “Gog and Magog” mean in the middle of the Satan-deceiving-the-nations sentence?? There’s literally NOTHING else like it in the whole book.

The book of Revelation is chiastic. It’s an ancient Hebrew form of writing where it makes a pattern, then reverses the pattern and repeats it. This part (20:8) is not repeated anywhere else.

Don’t judge my theory yet. I’m just getting started. I have a lot more to say. This is just the beginning. Start looking at some of the resources I’ve given here and in the prior post. I’ll hit some more points in the next post.

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On the topic of Israel….

October 21, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 2 Comments

Part One

I started this series on Facebook, because there was interest. I can’t publish it on NewsWithViews because they have a strict “no criticism of Israel” policy. I was told straight from the publisher of NWV that I could write on anything I want EXCEPT Israel.

So here’s the first post I made, trying to lay some groundwork to introduce the topic gently. I made it on October 17, 2023.

I know I can get long-winded, so I’m going to break this up into several posts instead of one small novel. This first post will lay some groundwork on how my views evolved and why I mostly stay away from this topic in a public forum.

My background is only relevant to my perspective, but to help you understand where I’m coming from let me tell you a couple things about me. I’ve been a serious disciple of Christ for over three decades, have read the Bible through from cover to cover a few times (probably 10-12), and read and studied in depth several portions far more times than that. I only say this so you realize I’m not a baby Christian who is unfamiliar with the Word. That said, I’d say one could study the Word of God for the entirety of one’s life and not fully grasp its mysteries. So my knowledge is only on a very wide and varied scale.

I have not attended a western Church regularly for about seven years. When in the western Church I was mostly a teacher, a drama instructor, a youth leader, and a speaker. Without going into detail, I’ll just say I frequently incurred the religious spirit – and it has many, many faces.

My personal background is I was raised by an astute religious spirit (but not in a religious setting, the religious spirit operates everywhere, not just a church), and in hindsight recognize I was trained by circumstance by such a spirit, and thus operated quite heavily in the religious spirit. It would be years before I could recognize it in myself. It would be a few years before I found deliverance from it and could break free. That said, I am usually able to discern an operating religious spirit pretty quickly. I am pretty experienced with it from both within and without.

Enough about me.

Steven Collins wrote a four-part series of books on the lost tribes of Israel, documenting migratory patterns and historical records in great detail, with an extensive bibliography. It was in reading this series that my eyes were opened to one of the fallacies or weaknesses of the western institutional church: they don’t teach the foundation of the faith correctly, or completely. So many things began to make sense when I moved through this book series. The Bible came alive.

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Steve Collins’ website

Arthur Koestler wrote a book called the Thirteenth Tribe, detailing the reality of modern day Jews, that there is a whole people group who have adopted the Jewish label who have no bloodline connection to it whatsoever, the Khazarians. The “synagogue of Satan” from Revelation 2:9 and 3:9 began to make sense to me finally.

I studied for quite some time under Avi ben Mordechai, a Messianic Jew who broke open Hebrew idioms and cultural traditions that breathed new life into the Word for me. God overlapped that with a profound experience in my personal life (I found a blood brother who we’d been separated from birth), and God showed me some differences in roots from bloodline to adoption that really helped me grasp some spiritual concepts. Through another experience I met a Messianic Rabbi from a city a couple hours away that reinforced some of the learnings I was starting to grasp. He and I exchanged emails for a couple years, and he sent me personal studies he had written to help me understand deeper some concepts of Hebrew words and certain topics. I invited him to our town twice to hold Passover Seders. I love the Hebraic roots of Scripture. Some of these studies have been some of my most enriching ones.

https://www.amazon.com/Books-Avi-Ben-Mordechai/s?rh=n%3A283155%2Cp_27%3AAvi+Ben+Mordechai

I studied the book of Revelation and Daniel for years. I embarked on a serious study that took over my dining room for quite some time. I labored to understand the prophecies. Each time I thought I was grasping them, I had to return to the drawing board when I hit inconsistencies. Sometime in this season God gave me two vivid dreams that He reinforced with a literal sign – it was quite supernatural. He called me to teach it to whoever would listen. I asked Him how, as I had been out of organized church for a couple years. A pastor of a local church came to me and offered me his church to teach in, said he’d give me a key and I could just pick the evening/time, and I could have it. I sent out an email to see if anyone was interested, and had a small showing of people for a several month 19-lesson class.

a picture Bill snapped of me in my dining room season

The dreams are here: https://www.eternalissues.com/?post_format=link

I studied under Ellis Skolfield (not to be confused with the Scofield of the annotated Bible who has done serious disservice to the Word of God here in America and abroad). I actually talked with Mr. Skolfield on the phone once, and was saddened when this WWII veteran died a few years ago. His teachings helped me step almost completely away from any residue left from the western church on eschatology.

https://www.ellisskolfield.net/

Through my writings at NewsWithViews, I get a lot of emails and meet some really interesting people. I was approached by a man out of the country who asked me to edit a book he was writing. We had exchanged emails before and he had previously asked me to read and review an earlier book he had written on evolution, which I did. When he asked me to edit this other book and told me the topic and title, I told him I probably wasn’t the best choice because I didn’t agree with his stance on eschatology. He said that was precisely why he wanted me. He said I’d be able to find the holes in his presentation, and he wanted to shore up anything unclear. I reluctantly agreed. Through the editing of that book, I was finally able to see some things I had stubbornly held onto but couldn’t really solidly prove. There’s more to this story, but for brevity will say I had been having a recurring themed dream for two-plus years up until this time that had me troubled deeply for its implications. As I was slowly able to lay down my stubbornly held beliefs and consider I may be wrong, the Spirit showed me the danger in my long-held beliefs which were allegorical to the recurring dreams I’d had for the prior two-plus years.

the book I edited

I didn’t know what to do with this. It meant twenty years of my teaching were in error. I take very seriously James 3:1, that teachers will be held in stricter judgment. I withdrew to reexamine my learning, my understanding, my beliefs. I literally took every eschatological belief I had and put it on a shelf or in the trash, and mourned. I mourned for the fact that I may have led anyone astray. I asked the Lord what I was to do now. Mind you, this was AFTER I had taught a 19-week class with errant teaching.

And I withdrew from any sort of public teaching or expounding. I went back to the Scriptures with new(er) eyes, went back to the drawing board, and waited. I held nothing tightly in my hands and left myself open to the possibility that I may need to unlearn everything AGAIN and start over. I considered just laying it all down and withdrawing from the study and definitely the teaching. Perhaps my mind was not going to understand. Perhaps it was above my pay grade. Perhaps I am not meant to “get it” and I should relegate back to the experts and theologians and Bible scholars. I even sent apologies to a couple people I felt I should and recanted my prior statements.

Some time later I read Michael Heiser’s Unseen Realm. So many things fell into place for me. Things I had wondered about, things I had theorized, things I had been turning around in my head started to come together. I was beginning to back away from the details and see the bigger picture in a new way and it was illuminating. I took Psalm 82:1 to my son and asked him to read it. He read it aloud and I told him it was the wrong translation, to look at it in the English Standard Version. He read it and I watched his eyes change as he looked up at me and said, “Mom, this changes everything!” Yes. Yes it does.

https://www.christianbook.com/unseen-realm-recovering-supernatural-worldview-bible/michael-heiser/9781577995562/pd/995562

I watched Ewar’s several hour documentary on the hidden history of earth. I saw the free energy centers spread across the earth, the meticulous geometry and perfect mathematics, the enormous buildings built with perfect precision. I marveled at the buildings that we can neither afford now nor do we seem competent enough to recreate with all the modern technological advances we have. I realized that with such an environment, there had to have been a semblance of peace and unity on the earth. There had to be a cooperation among peoples. There had to be advanced thought and behavior beyond anything demonstrated on earth presently or in official historical records.

I listened to the questions about the masses of orphans, the influx of small children moved across America and Europe. I explored the early 1900s movies and books and the recurring themes they presented that asked more questions than they answered.

I watched the twelve hour documentary Europa and wept at its implications. I revisited World Wars one and two and bought some non-narrative accounts of them to pore through. I bought Mein Kampf (back before they banned it again in America) and read Hitler’s words for myself. I looked at some old headlines; I listened to some old speeches. I dug into the Church Committee findings in the mid-1970s and its damning findings.

I traced the Khazarian king who converted his people to Talmudic Judaism to the line of Magog of the bloodline of Japheth (NOT Shem). I remembered that there are only four places in Scripture that name is listed: in the genealogy of Japheth in Genesis 10 and 1 Chronicles 1, in the prophecy of Gog in Ezekiel 38-39, and in the final battle of Revelation 20. I studied the Khazarians and how their homeland is modern day Ukraine. I noted that the current Ukrainian flag bears the Khazarian crest, and I surmised that perhaps Revelation 20:8 was coded language for the Khazarian bloodline. Revelation 20:8 doesn’t make good grammatical sense and it has always read like a cryptic symbol to me. What if the Gog and Magog of Revelation 20:8 is the Khazarian bloodline who are bent on worldwide conquest and dominion? It’s not only plausible and possible, but it plays into modern day current events perfectly.

I learned that renown historians Josephus and Tacitus recorded the return of a heavenly army over Jerusalem in 70 A.D. – a well established fact the institutional church has neglected to teach or even present as evidence. I know that the false teaching of the rapture can be traced to a little girl’s vision from England, not the Word of God, and that there was no such teaching in the church for eighteen hundred years before her “vision” that Scofield ran with. I know the “seven year tribulation” can be traced to two Jesuit priests employed by the Pope to take the heat off the RCC and put a so-called “anti Christ” off into an unknown future.

https://www.hope-of-israel.org/chariotsinthe%20sky.html

But now this is getting long, so I’ll wrap it for now and just finish like this: It’s hard for me to succinctly present my current events theories that are so counter-narrative both secularly and religiously because they cover so much ground that is not widely understood. Where do you start? If you give the punch line first, you are ridiculed or mocked as some absurd fringe theory. Most people don’t want to take the time to study some of the history out, to evaluate some of the prolific lies the world is entrenched in, or to lay down deeply held indoctrinations.

So I mostly keep silent, or drop little hints or suggestions that all is not as it seems. If anyone is still interested after poring through this, I will make a post of my theory as a summary from these studies (and others I haven’t mentioned for brevity).

I’ve linked some my resources in the text above, but can provide more if interested.

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Musings from a 72-hour especially dark ordeal

September 18, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 2 Comments

I suppose it’d be too long to cover all the details, but the gist is, I found myself out of state and in severe pain. It had the symptoms of maybe a kidney stone, maybe appendicitis, (both of which I’ve suffered in the last three years once, and never before). At the behest of my loved ones around me watching me suffer, I agreed to let them take me to an ER at about one in the morning. (The pains had started about seven that evening, and I tried very hard to hide them and manage them myself. Unfortunately they intensified and I was no longer able to shrug it off as “a little stomach pain”.)

After an especially grueling five hour ER visit in small town (out of state) hospital with ZERO other patients, they assessed I had a 4mm stone and it was about 1.5 inches from the bladder. Oh good, I reasoned, the last one I had was 5mm and I passed it. This one is almost all the way down, should be over with soon, I reasoned. They gave me a strong pain killer and sent me on my way.

I thought the reason I was so tired when we were driving the 6+ hours home the next day was just from getting back to the hotel at six and having about four hours of sleep. I thought it a little odd I was nauseous and had to pull over a few times to vomit.

A friend picked me up and took me to the pharmacy where I got the pain killer prescription and I arrived home Thursday evening. I felt shredded so laid down, for what ended up being several hours. I tried to get up around eight or nine that evening and get something to eat, but didn’t have much appetite, and kept falling asleep, so finally went to bed for the night. Oddly, a couple hours before I went to bed this phrase from a worship song began playing in my head, “This is how I fight my battles. It may feel like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You.” Hmm, weird, I thought. God usually gives me songs in the night or early morning.

I woke up in the three o’clock hour with that intense pain moving in. Trying to ward it off, I got up and took the pain killer and went back to bed. About an hour later I woke up to my teeth chattering. Weird, I thought. Weirder still, it worsened. They began clattering violently, and it hurt. I tried to hold my jaws to settle them, but I couldn’t control it. My husband was now awake and trying to figure out what was going on. It kept getting worse, more violent, until my body even began convulsing. I couldn’t speak because my teeth were chattering so badly. By now I was quite frightened because I had no idea what was going on in my body or how to alleviate it.

Bill got up and began gathering things to go to the ER. When I got out of bed I was startled that I couldn’t walk well because of my body shaking so badly. I couldn’t grab anything with my hands, and I could barely speak other than with single words and repeating them until they came through the teeth correctly.

Our city has two main hospitals that carry their own problems, and we have found a non-corporate ER room that is free of so many of the hospital bureaucracies. There they got me right in, began assessing, threw warm blankets on me, and started drawing blood while administering pain control. After several blood draws, examining my prior night’s ER records we had brought, and a urinalysis, I was surprised when the doctor came in and said, “Well you won’t be going home today.”

I wasn’t really prepared for that. I thought it was another matter of just passing the stone. I had been chiding myself that I should have been doing the preventative treatment the weeks prior when I thought my kidney was a little achy.

He went on to say they were going to give me some powerful antibiotics intravenously because my blood was sepsis, and my white blood count was quite elevated (and I had a 103 temperature). He said that either the stone was infected, or the stone had gotten caught and caused an infection, and now my blood was poisoned. He made it sound rather urgent, rather life or death if left untreated, and they immediately began administering antibiotics.

He then went on to tell me the next course of action where I would be transferred by ambulance (!) to a major hospital where an urologist will be selected to determine the next steps, which would likely be surgery. There were other details that I’m missing but that’s the crucial part.

I waited for all the hospital staff to finish and leave the room, then turned to Bill and said, “I don’t think I can do it. He’s never failed me before.” Bill knows me, knows my heart and understands me. He said, “Maybe there will be another option.” So he asked the doctor when he came back next how likely he thinks surgery will be the solution. He said in my current state he thought it very likely, but that would be the urologist’s decision. When Bill asked what other options we had, he answered that I could pass the stone and then they’d just have to do intense antibiotic treatment.

That became my prayer. That’s when I reached out to friends to pray the stone passed so that surgery was removed from the solutions. The phrase of that song became the song I sang to myself in my head the next 24 hours or so.

The hospital adventure is too long for this rant, but it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be in some ways, and worse in others. Bureaucracy was definitely still an issue. The urologist was ready to do surgery, but was actually quite reasonable and said he couldn’t do that without knowing where the stone was. He ordered x-rays and they couldn’t find anything. He ordered another CT scan and couldn’t find anything conclusive. He requested I stay overnight while they kept fluids in me, monitored my temperature (which wasn’t as dramatic, but still showed infection), and saw how I landed in the morning. When he left it was left that surgery was still a possibility the next afternoon.

That’s the backstory. But it’s the context for the next part.

My first musing about said trial

I was absolutely miserable. My body ached from the fever, from the hospital bed, from the whole ordeal. Pain meds minimized but didn’t remove the pains. My only prayer was that the stone pass so that I didn’t need surgery. I was okay with antibiotics; I saw their urgent place.

This is where I hate explaining. I have no desire to defend my decisions, yet explaining them is burdensome. I don’t need anyone to agree with me, and I certainly don’t expect anyone else live by my own standards. These are standards I acquired as I grew.

I have some very basic beliefs. They’re mine; they’re my beliefs, and I’m not asking anyone else to believe them. I’ve had too many encounters with God where He established His sovereignty over my body and I relinquished personal choice in the matter. I simply yielded myself into His hands.

I didn’t have anyone in my life I could depend on (before Bill), and I threw myself at the mercy of my Creator decades ago. I’d rather be at His mercy than man’s. I’d rather yield to His wisdom and power than man’s. Those are my beliefs, my convictions.

I’ve heard it all over the years. “God made doctors.” (Did He? Or did He create man and give man wisdom? Let’s be clear.) “God uses doctors.” Absolutely. I have no qualms with that. “God gave us brains.” (I’m not going to dignify that with an answer.) If you can think of an objection to my belief system, I’d pretty much guarantee I’ve either heard it or contemplated it myself.

But I view life and the matters of life through the lens of walking with my Creator. So every time I’ve had a crisis point, a moment of decision, a place I must choose which way to turn, I look for God first. Where is He in this? What is He saying? What can I glean from what I’ve learned about Him to help me make this decision?

And I try to never, ever go backwards. If I trusted God for matters of my health/finances/relationships/etc. in the past, how do I stop trusting Him in this new, scary instance? Is this new situation too big for Him? Is it somehow going to stump Him? If He has proven Himself faithful with my particular needs before, is this an instance He may drop the ball? Would I rather trust God or man?

See, that’s where I think the rub comes in. We make decisions, have reactions based on fear too much of the time. I’m in excruciating pain and suffering and there’s a possibility I may die from said pain without intervention, so at this instance I am at the same crossroads I’ve been before. If I decide differently, that this is somehow too big or scary to trust God, then I have walked backward in my faith. That’s not a place I’m comfortable being. To be honest, I’d rather die. When I looked at Bill and said, “I don’t think I can do that; He’s never failed me.” I also said, “I’m okay with dying.”

For all of my life, God has been my one constant. He has never failed me. (Bill is a close second, but he has not been here all of my life.) God cares for me more than anyone possibly could. He knows me better than anyone ever will. It is simple to trust Him (but not always easy). There is no doctor who knows my body better than God. There is no doctor that knows what’s going on in my body better than God. I like my odds there. Now it’s just trying to get myself aligned with God for the needs of my body. I don’t mind that work. I’m working with God. Man is so much more inconsistent. (Which is not to say God does not use man, because there have been many instances God has and I have acquiesced to the person He put in my path.)

My second musing about trial

Saturday morning when they still did not have a visual on the stone and my fever had not spiked but had remained under control, they reluctantly sent me home with oral antibiotics and pain killers and specific instructions. If my fever was to spike and/or pain increase, I was to return at once.

Little did I realize my real battle was in front of me. Once I got home (Saturday morning around ten), I laid down after taking my antibiotic, only to wake up twenty minutes later and vomit it up. My fever shot up a bit and I felt quite sick. As the day progressed I fought nausea, loss of appetite, fever, and absolutely no strength or energy. It took too much energy to speak, and I communicated by whispers meted out by necessity. I was not able to walk well on my own. If I had to walk on my own it was painfully slow and shuffled.

If I were to be honest, I would think this may be what it feels like to be dying. I couldn’t take antibiotics or pain killers because I couldn’t eat and if I didn’t eat, I vomited. It was a very, very long day. The day before I had sorta joked, “I didn’t see my week going like this.” On Saturday, I wasn’t sure what the next 24 hours were going to bring.

Everyone who saw me (except Bill) begged me to go back to the hospital. My kids saw me early afternoon, and when they returned late afternoon they were dismayed. They exclaimed that I looked horribly worse. They lovingly implored us to not be “stubborn” and to go back to the hospital, that I was doing terribly and sepsis is not something you can take lightly.

My daughter got me some jello. Another daughter got me some pretzels. I ate what I could (a few bites of each), and waited to see if I could keep them down. My children left. After thirty minutes or so, Bill and I prayed over the antibiotics and asked God to remove the nausea. I took the pill. A couple hours later I laid down, feeling the worse I had been feeling all day, honestly wondering if I was dying. I was too weak to pray, to answer my phone, to talk, to move, to do anything at all.

When I laid down, I committed it all to God – the whole thing. If I should go to the hospital, I would do what He said. If I were to die, please take care of my family. I asked Him to heal me, to remove the infection, but however it went, I released myself (again, as I always do) into His care. The last words I prayed were, “I trust You.”

Around midnight I woke up in a pool of sweat and pain free. My fever had broken. I think I laid in bed smiling for an hour, thanking God for the breakthrough. When I laid down, I thought the possibility existed that maybe I wouldn’t wake up the next day.

I’m not out of the woods yet. I’ll be taking antibiotics for another eight days. I had a low grade fever off and on all day on Sunday. There are still risks involved. I’m not here to make a stand for “never going to the doctor”. I just haven’t quite figured out how to trust God and man simultaneously.

Which leads me to this last muse…. Is it really stubbornness? In an age of unfaithfulness, wouldn’t conviction seem a lot like stubbornness? We live in a world, a society, a nation even, that bows the knee to human prowess and has been quite vocal in recent years at mocking God. Is me trying to walk out my convictions that contradict worldly systems offensive? Didn’t Paul speak of such things when he spoke of the carnal mind being unable to comprehend the things of the spirit? When you come at me with human reasoning in matters of faith, you solidify my stance.

Can I have the freedom to exercise my faith to the best of my ability? Or is that now somehow relegated to categories of “stubbornness” or “stupidity”? Should I bend my convictions to the altars of human knowledge and human wisdom? Or should the altars of human knowledge and wisdom bend to the wisdom of God? I want to represent Him well.

I don’t necessarily have the answers. I wasn’t sure what I was going to do, but I needed time to seek Him, to figure it out. I went home to do that. I have to take each of these situations on a case by case and see if I am able to walk out my convictions with the decisions I make. It is my greatest desire to walk with God in the manner He created me for, and sometimes that takes some time to figure out.

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Rant

July 27, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 1 Comment

It’s just interesting to me that conservatives are as biased as liberals but pretend they aren’t. It’s like we all have these lines we draw in the sand about what we’re willing to look at and/or believe and what we aren’t. I’m quite sure I do the same thing, even though I make a concerted effort not to.

I posted An0maly’s eighteen minute reporting on Trump’s connections to Bill Gates, his endorsements of Fauci and Birx, and his pride in his role in getting the covid vaccine released, ALL WHILE IN OFFICE. Crickets.

I’m just going to go off for a minute and I’m probably going to piss someone(s) off. I know most of us are sitting on the outside trying to make sense of actions happening on the inside of the playmakers’ tents. We can’t possibly know all the details, and we’re at best connecting some fuzzy dots. But when the dots are unfavorable, we don’t have the luxury of stopping our ears, covering our eyes, and closing our minds IF we care about truth and the stand for righteousness.

It’d go a long way if we’d not pick a mascot token person(s) for the fight in front of us. We just need to be able to stand on truths so we don’t fall in the cesspools of deceptive half-truths. That’s what makes one deceived. It’s what got us here in the first place.

Also, people are fallible. I don’t care how much you love the guy you’ve bet all your chips on, he/she is still going to make mistakes — and sometimes some very costly ones. King David cost innocent people their lives to the tune of THOUSANDS for his own mistake. Making mistakes doesn’t necessarily mean it’s the wrong person for the job, but covering for their errors and pretending they’re something they’re not only worsens our ability to flex and adapt in a constant moving reality. It worsens our condition instead of bettering it.

My husband thinks I’m amazing. Sometimes I am. Sometimes I’m not. When I screw up, we can’t afford to pretend I didn’t. We learn from it, adapt, grow. If we don’t, we create an environment of dysfunction. I can still be amazing and make serious errors. So can you, so can Trump, so can anyone. We don’t need to pretend errors are something else. It doesn’t help anything but the deception.

To conclude (haha!), I learned a really painful but necessary lesson years ago. I may have already shared it. But I was trying to make a decision about something that I was about 50/50 for/against. I sought intercessors and prayed and fasted and sought God hard about the decision. At the end of this period, the thing I thought I heard God on ended up I had not heard correctly. The intercessors had not heard correctly. We were all wrong because the outcome did not align with what we thought we had heard. And I was absolutely dismayed — not because I cared about the outcome, but because I did not hear God correctly and did not discern correctly.

After days of railing about this to God, and then a period of sullen silence because I ran out of things to belabor, He finally spoke. He said, “Michelle, if your faith is in anything but Me, you will fail. If your faith is in your understanding, if your faith is in your faith, if your faith is in your ability to hear Me, if your faith is in words in the Bible, if your faith is in ANYTHING but Me, ultimately your faith will fall. It will fail.”

We don’t realize the things we hang our mental hats on. We aren’t circumspect enough, as a general rule. We don’t realize that this thing we’re holding out hope in is based on moving parts and riddled with human foibles, while being sabotaged by dark spirits. All of our understanding, all of our wisdom and discernment, all of our experiences, all of our knowledge, everything — is nothing. It’s nothing.

My understanding is going to fail. My prayers will fail. My best efforts will fail. Not always, but at some points, and sometimes at a critical point. We just can’t afford to willfully turn aside from hard truths. We don’t have to embrace them, but we need to be honest and fair about them. Maybe we don’t understand where, how or why they fit. But disregarding them is to our detriment and hinders the progress of righteousness.

Rant over.

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Wheat Among Tares

June 29, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 2 Comments

I’ve been spending a lot of time the past year or more, reevaluating my convictions and beliefs. The old adage, “the more you learn the less you know” has resonated through my core. I won’t bore you with all the categories I’ve revisited, or even all the things I’ve reevaluated and changed some of my thinking on. I’ll just let you know where I am now.

I know nothing completely. I only know in part, and am fumbling my way to learning more. Let the record state.

You know how President Reagan said, “It isn’t so much that liberals are ignorant. It’s just that they know so many things that aren’t so.”? I just don’t want to be THAT. I need the little parts I do know to be truth.

Watching the systematic dismantling of our nation has been grueling. There are no less than a hundred serious issues in America, (and most of them have been assessed prolifically in the public square). As I found myself more and more burdened by the seeming growing darkness, I sought all the harder to find the Light. It’s been almost two years of this pursuit, and this is where I find myself today…

I’ve been looking at it all wrong.

The Ancient of Days cannot be defeated, minimized, or subdued. However dark the days are becoming is irrelevant to the Kingdom of God, which cannot be destroyed, defeated, or even altered.

The Spirit keeps leading me back to Daniel 7, the vision of the coming beasts in Daniel’s day. Do you recall that when the Son of Man is presented in Daniel’s vision, that He was given dominion, glory and a kingdom that is everlasting and cannot be destroyed? (vs. 14) But wait! It gets better! That kingdom that Christ takes dominion of is given to the saints of God who will possess it “for all ages to come.” (vs. 18 and again in 27)

(I realize there will be some theological differences here of when that occurs, but I don’t have space to get into that right now. Let me just say, I am thoroughly convinced that kingdom has been given to Christ upon His victory over the devil and death; He now possesses it, as do the saints of God.)

This means try as the darkness may, it cannot achieve the takeover of the earth. It can only take what it is given. [And let’s be clear about this, it accomplishes this through deceit. Yes, people yield to the darkness because they are blind, ignorant and/or deceived. But we are children of the Light, and we merely have to resist the darkness and it has to flee.] (James 4:7)

[Sidebar: Before you contact me to inform me how wrong I am about the timing on this, please spend some time in Daniel 2. Recall the statue of Nebuchadnezzar’s dream. We know that the statue is relegated in the end of an era as inferior kingdoms of mixture represented by the final state of the Roman empire. We also know that the final state of the Roman empire is the beginning of the Church of Christ/Kingdom of God. (not a denomination, but the actual followers of Christ) According to Daniel, Christ’s kingdom is set up in those days, the days the Roman empire fractures and fails. He even uses the imagery of a stone cut from a mountain, and we know Christ to be the cornerstone of the Kingdom of God. Eventually that kingdom established by the rock cut from the mountain will crush all other kingdoms and remain the only enduring kingdom. THAT kingdom (Christ’s) only grows, only gets stronger and bigger.]

There is no contingency. That is the only plan and it is a plan that cannot fail.

The only thing darkness can do to children of light is deceive.

Our position in the Kingdom of God is superior to anything the kingdoms of this world can offer. We have to stop straddling between two kingdoms. Darkness can only take from light what light gives it.

We must stop giving anything to darkness.

We are not victims of bad people. We are more than conquerors in Christ. (Romans 8:37)

Refuse to participate with the works of darkness.

It’s really that simple. (and by simple I don’t mean necessarily easy)

I’m in a women’s group that meets monthly, and we were meeting in 2020. The obvious current events dominated many of our discussions. (masks, mandates, vaccines, etc.) At one point I told the group that Bill and I weren’t participating in the pandemic. They seemed taken aback and asked what I meant. I mean that we don’t wear masks, don’t stay home, we do our own shopping, still gather with friends and family, keep our blood untainted by untested poisons, etc. To us, the “pandemic” was a setting on another stage, but was not our stage, not our reality. (and yes, Bill got covid twice and was treated and recovered fine with the nonpoisonous treatments available and without the medical industry’s input)

I don’t adhere to the systems of the world. They don’t dictate my actions, and if they get in my way, I find a way around or through. This is the responsibility of freedom (both as a Christian, but also as a free American). It may get dicey in the days to come here in America. The determined and desperate powers of darkness operating through humans may attempt to force conditions, and we may be forced to take some hard stands that may cost us. But let’s not just give it to them. Let’s not go along to get along. What does light have to do with darkness?

The Kingdom of God cannot be defeated, and as Christ told us in Matthew 13, though the kingdom of God started small (like a mustard seed), it will grow full size to the point it will become a tree that houses much life. That tree cannot be cut down, and it will not be thwarted.

Christ went on to say the Kingdom of God is like leaven which though hidden in just three small parts of flour went on to leaven all of the dough. The dynamic character of yeast is that once the process begins, it cannot be thwarted. The kingdom of God cannot be stopped.

And then THIS is where God led me in a sort of full circle:

A bearded darnel is also called a tare, and in broader language, a weed. The tare (darnel) also looks like wheat at first glance. Christ told us the wheat and tares will grow up together. Tearing out the tares will damage the wheat, and so they must co-exist until the harvest, so as to not damage the wheat.

Their roots get intertwined. God’s children are in a world system where at first glance we might look like the children of the world. But upon closer look, we’re clearly not. It would seem we must co-exist in this world, each of us reaching fruition of our character, whether for good or evil. To try to tear out the weeds among the wheat (the bad among the good) before full fruition can damage the good as well. Both must be left to reach full harvest, and only at the harvest will they be separated.

The harvest is the end of the age. (Matthew 13:24-30)

Pragmateuomai…. It’s only used one time in the Bible. Occupy. “To busy oneself with; to trade.” It comes from the (Greek) root word “pragma” which means a deed, business, practice. The New American Standard says, “do business” and the English says, “engage in business”. It’s the only place in the Bible the word is used.

It’s in the parable of the nobleman who went to get his kingdom and gathered his servants to give them instructions until his return. Luke 19:13, “…and he said to them, occupy until I come.” Busy yourself with the resources I’ve given you; do business, practice, engage in business…. “until I come.”

This is our solution. This should be our focus.

“The darkness is not dark to You, the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are alike to You.” (Psalm 139:12)

The solution to the rising darkness is increasing our light. We occupy. We co-exist with the darkness, in but not of, and we busy ourselves with what God has given us in this territory we’ve been given – in our homes, our jobs, our cities, our country.

Remember that fear is darkness, and our culture, society, and world operate out of fear. Media, government officials, even church leaders motivate by fear. Begin to evaluate all information coming at you and recognize anything that promotes fear or stimulates a fear reaction in you. Once your recognize it, break alignment with it. Do not be in step with it. Fear is used to control and paralyze. It is paramount for the works of darkness. The opposite of fear is love, and the countermove of fear is faith. Look for the God solution to the “problem” being promoted and walk toward that until you are in it.

It’s not dark to God anyway. His Kingdom isn’t going anywhere; it can’t be defeated or destroyed or even thwarted. We’re of His Kingdom. We stand.

We have the solutions to the darkness. If we don’t, we must find them.

The food supply is threatened. Grow your own. The meat supply is threatened. Buy from your local farmer. The water supply is increasingly toxic. Set up a home water filtration system, dig a well, harvest rain water.

The medical industry is killing us and making us sicker. It’s controlled by Pharma and only prescribes toxins. Study natural healing, homeopathy, and/or put yourself in the care of experts in such areas.

There’s an increasing surveillance state. Get off every surveillance thing you can (Google, YouTube and Facebook are the biggest surveillance watchers in the world). Don’t employ them. There are alternative phone options, computer options, etc. If you don’t know where, seek.

We’re tired and sick. Eat healthier. Exercise more. Get in the sunlight. Turn off your wi-fi and hardwire your electronics to lower your exposure to EMFs. Learn how to deflect damaging 5G waves. Get off highly toxic prescriptions and learn how to heal your afflictions naturally and/or spiritually.

The economy is imploding and I have to work harder to keep less. Start co-ops with friends and family. Buy in bulk with others if necessary and split costs. Ride a bicycle when possible to strengthen your body and offset gas. Downsize if necessary, reinforce infrastructure if possible to minimize energy costs, etc.

The public schools are indoctrinating my children and grandchildren. Remove them. Homeschool. Set up a homeschool co-op if you need to and share teaching responsibilities with other parents if schedules are hard to optimize. Find a private or charter school if that suits you better. Start a private or charter school. Vet every single influencer in your child’s life.

The entertainment industry and public arena is full of depravity. REFUSE TO PARTICIPATE. Set up alternatives to everything that violates your convictions. Shut off the TV or find wholesome activities. Strengthen your family so the world doesn’t destroy it.

Corey’s Digs has a series of interviews called The Solution Series that right now feature 25 different experts in their field. They have solutions to the darkness in fields like technology, food supply, finance, health, self-reliance, and even the political realm. I have a notebook full of notes from it that I’m working through at implementing real time and real world solutions to tyranny, depravity, and other works of darkness attempting to occupy my energy.

We must be creators of light in our spheres of influence. We’ll be side by side with workers of darkness, but we are from the superior kingdom. We’re from the kingdom that can’t lose, can’t be destroyed, can’t be diminished, that ultimately cannot fail. Once we wrap our heads around that, occupying until He comes becomes clearer. We can focus better.

The world may indeed get darker, but if we’re doing our jobs, our lives will be the lights those in the darkness need, and will further the unshakeable Kingdom of God. A long time ago I learned the phrase, “What you behold you become.” Behold the Light; become the light.

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Refuse to Participate in the Works of Darkness

June 19, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 9 Comments

Let me start by saying who I am is not who I’ve always been. In fact who I am today is not even who I was a year ago, and there is barely a resemblance to who I was ten years ago. That said, dare I continue to expound and proclaim who I was 25+ years ago is not at all who I am today?

Yes, I have changed, and the truth of the difference between seasons of my life before and the season I am in now, is I was a much worse person the further back you go. This is not to endorse myself as particularly superb at this point, but it is to say past deeds of error and failure cannot be denied, and such past deeds have indeed hurt people I love – even though it was not my desire to do so.

I will not justify past pains I have caused by dismissing them as errors and young folly, especially in the face of suffering such may have caused to others. I regret every past sin, wish I had the wisdom and understanding and ability to behave differently then, and in an act of rectifying, try very hard to not be so today.

That said, if you are to view me today through the lens of my past failures, there is no hope for me. Today I am not that person in essence. Viewing me through the filter of yesterday will distort me today. Sure, there are plenty of faults I carry today, but I am more than happy to be accountable for them and change as needed.

Which leads to the lesson I wanted to share in the hopes of helping another….

Years ago, some that I love very dearly began a campaign (though they would never call it so) against me. These are people I have laid down my life for, and would do so today. Accusations (some true, some false) were flung against me from places of pain within themselves, pain from things I had done or said in the past (again some true, some false), and from misunderstandings. At first I was unaware of the talk, but slowly it began to seep out to me. Some was literally spoken to me, but most of it was veiled behind passive-aggressive behaviors.

At one point, the Spirit of God gave me visions of 2-3 of these people speaking amongst each other, and I saw whirlwinds of dark, polluted words over their heads. When I inquired of the Lord, He simply told me they were bringing accusations and complaints about me to one another and stirring up dissension and strife in our family.

It took me awhile to understand what was going on. I had been bewildered when some of their attitudes toward me changed, became hostile or combative, and especially accusatory. At one point, the Spirit showed me two of them on the phone, showed a computer screen with my social media page pulled up, and showed condemning words over me from both parties. I unfriended both from my social media page without comment, as I didn’t want more conflict. I did so in an effort to remove gasoline from a burning fire.

Our family dynamics began to change. Factions crept up, what seemed like alliances pitting some against others came to be. Triangulating began between parties. The worse it got, the more I distanced myself. At first I tried to understand, tried to reach out to the offended parties. I went through a very, very long season (a few years) of great angst. My efforts to try to bridge growing chasms, to apologize or extend mending efforts only seemed to exacerbate the situation.

In the thickest part of this darkness, I struggled a great deal trying very hard to not view those I love with my entire being as enemies. The arrows kept coming; the sabotage was real; and I was being alienated and put outside of the people I cared the most about. It rocked everything in me. If it weren’t for God breaking in with His truths at critical times, I do not know where I’d be today. It was destroying me and I was slowly dying.

It seemed to originate with one particular person, the one I called best friend and had felt the closest to by a long shot. Over the years our relationship died. I prayed about our relationship, prayed for this person, reached out less and less as the extensions were rebuffed. Finally God Himself spoke to me and told me two things about where this person was, and one thing about what the future would bring.

The first thing He told me was proven within days. The second thing I began to see and understand a few years later. The promise of the future I just hold on to, sometimes I see it and sometimes I don’t.

But the lesson I want to share right now is this. In the worst part of this, when the accusations and slander was flying, the behaviors were hostile and even cruel, I had to fight to not to want to defend myself, not to want to lash out. My own thoughts became dark with questions and doubts, and I struggled to not retaliate out of my own pain. I did not always overcome.

One particular day as I was nursing wounds over recent events, I was struggling to find the right course of action and attitude when the Spirit spoke. He paraphrased this passage from James 3:

Who among you is wise and understanding? Let him show by his good behavior his deeds in the gentleness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your heart, do not be arrogant and so lie against the truth. This wisdom is not that which comes down from above, but is earthly, natural, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder (confusion) and every evil thing. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy. And the seed whose fruit is righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.

Then said, “What kind of fruit is this producing, Michelle?”

Then He led me to Galatians 5:19-24:

Now the deeds of the flesh are evident, which are: immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, disputes, dissensions, factions, envying, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these, of which I forewarn you, just as I have forewarned you, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

Strife, enmities, outbursts of anger, disputes, dissensions, factions were abounding in our family. “Where do these come from, Michelle?” He asked. These are “every evil thing”; these are the works of darkness. And in that moment it was no longer about the people but about the spirits operating through the people. For me to respond or react in anger, in defense even, in manners that would exacerbate the divisions and factions already produced, would be for me to partner with darkness to our family’s demise. I did not want to be a vehicle for the devil’s work and to the demise of our family. I had to choose to respond in wisdom and love, and if I couldn’t do that, I must keep silence. I do not want my family’s demise. I do not want any of the people involved to be damaged.

I posted the following on my wall where I would see it daily.

As the days proceeded to challenge my resolve, I remembered some instructions I learned back in the days I was getting deliverance. When you remove the dark, you must replace it with light. So I made a couple more notes and put them in prominent places I would see with the additional instruction. This one is faded from being in the sun.

The people I love are manifesting works of darkness. I must refuse to participate with the works of darkness. I cannot retaliate; I cannot return like for like, and most of the time I am not even to defend myself. In my silence, I run the risk of being misunderstood, (which is quite normal for me actually). But I dare not disgrace my God, and this is the way I know to do so at this point. (even though there are moments I still fail)

It’s interesting the different lessons I’ve been learning along the way. I spend so much of my time raging against the machine and the evils of the world that I was caught off guard when the darkness manifested in the place that used to be my refuge. It’s been equally devastating to watch the toll it has taken on my beloved. I have a lifetime of rejections and abandonments that have in part “prepared” me. He has had only one that nearly devastated him almost thirty years ago. It has been particularly painful watching him suffer from the loss of those he loves. It’s not what we think family is supposed to be. It’s not what we endeavor family to be. And dare I say it’s not what family was designed to be.

We live in a fallen world, and like never before I can see the powers of darkness clashing with the kingdom of Light – both externally and internally. We have choices, albeit hard ones. Ultimately, our allegiance will manifest in our behaviors, regardless of what our tongues say.

I cannot help but think on the situation our family has been in for far too long now. It is fractured, with clear strife, divisions and other manifestations of darkness. Years ago the Spirit directed me to memorize 1 Corinthians 13. Sometimes when I recount harsh words against me that have been left to stand as they were stated, have not been recanted, corrected or amended, the Spirit gently whispers to me, “That is not the nature of love.” And if it’s not the nature of love, then it is in fact the nature of darkness.

God has broken in for me at precise moments to keep me from utter despair or a downward spiral of condemnation. I do not write this from a point of need. He has been faithful to me; has used even strangers to tell me what He thinks of some of this – strangers who knew nothing of my situation. I only share because I think so many of us suffer from works of darkness manifesting in places we wish it wasn’t. It’s so much easier to fight the battle outside than within. The cost is so much greater when it is people we love than evil systems by unnamed or unknown people.

When it’s people we love in an environment that’s supposed to be safe, we are called to personify love. We must remember that love suffers long, that it is kind, that it does not behave rudely, that it does not seek its own, and that it keeps no record of wrong. We can be assured that we do not rejoice in the iniquity that is challenging it, but we do indeed rejoice at the truth. This has been a hard place especially for my husband, for he is unwilling to compromise what he knows to be truth to assuage emotions. But ultimately, love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and even endures all things. Love never fails. The reason love never fails is because God is love. We must choose our alliances, God or darkness. The details rarely if ever work out or manifest the way we think or want them to. It doesn’t matter, though. We set our eyes upon our Master and try not to flinch as we emulate His character, even at great personal cost.

“Refuse to participate in the works of darkness. Walk in light.”

I pray this encourages someone to seek the Kingdom of Light while walking through the valley of death, and to demonstrate love even in the face of pain and darkness.

Essays and Thoughts, Raw, Things I've Learned Along the Way

trial in the Valley

June 18, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 4 Comments

I’ll be sharing some learning moments from a family trauma we’ve been going through for a few years now. I’m only sharing things we’ve learned from God, not the trauma itself, in an effort to testify to God’s great love for all of us and how He is in the midst of even the drudgery of human failures.

I’ve been watching my husband slowly inwardly dying from the pain of this trial. [I have my own issues with it, but this is not about that right now.] Several months ago I had a dream and in one part, Bill was swimming in a river with a water turtle (turtles are a passion of his), and an alligator came up and bit him. He was too far away for me to get to because the river bank was so high, and I watched his lifeless body sinking to the river bed about 25 feet below as I heard myself screaming his name. No other part of the dream was about Bill, so I was startled by this inset in the dream. I looked up the symbolism of an alligator attack and this stood out: a spiritual attack often manifesting in treachery, and then an issue, challenge, or person stopping one’s flow. When I inquired of the Spirit upon waking, God told me Bill was inwardly dying from the treachery involved in the trial.

I’ve watched as has felt stuck, unable to move forward, but unwilling to compromise what he knows is truth – to the painful detriment of his heart. It seems to come and go in waves, with sometimes obvious, sometimes not so obvious triggers that set him back again. It has manifested even in physical symptoms of physical pain, and I am grieved watching him in so much pain, but unable to assuage it.

Last week revealed more pain for Bill, and much of this pain he shoulders alone, unwilling to share with me because of his desire to shield me from further affliction. The simplest word for his pain is abandonment. He (and our family) have been abandoned by one he (and our family) dearly loves. He did not see it coming, and it has crippled him in ways I am not at liberty to discuss.

Bill is a fixer. He cannot fix this, and every attempt he has made to fix it has only seemingly worsened it. He has withdrawn outward efforts in an attempt to not make matters any worse. [I withdrew years ago when it seemed my presence only intensified the matter.]

Which brings us up to recent events that found Bill incapacitated by physical pain that I believe was brought on by emotional pain. As he poured out his heart to me, I felt unable to bring relief or comfort. Yet I felt the Lord speak through me when I told him he had to stop processing this ordeal through a particular title/role he holds in it. He has done all he can to demonstrate his love and acceptance of this person, and there is nothing more he can do that will not compromise him, his convictions, and his obedience to God in the matter. He needs to lay that down and focus on his role as a son, a son of God. How does God see him? What does God think of him? What is God asking of him?

The next morning he relayed a dream he had the night before. He had rented a ground tamper from Dale Sharp Auto. (hilarious because Dale Sharp sells cars, does not rent tools) He was pulling it with his truck and got caught in a snow storm. The storm was so bad he was starting to get stuck. He felt like he was stuck in a part of our city called “Oakland”. He got out his phone to call Dale Sharp to tell them he might be late to getting the tamper back because of the storm, when a young boy rolled up beside him outside on a child’s sized snowmobile. The boy and his snowmobile were moving effortlessly in the storm, even moving snow out of the way. He woke up.

The storm represents the trial he is in, and snow represents purifying. God is using this present trial to purify Bill in specific ways. Bill is trying to resolve the issue/conflict in the manner he knows but he is unable to labor his way out of this storm. (He is not meant to.) Oaks symbolize strength and power, and he is getting stuck in the place he is trying to maneuver in his own strength or power. Dale means “valley”. Bill is walking in the “valley of the shadow of death” (remember the alligator dream), but the valley will sharpen him. God is showing him he can move through this purifying storm by returning to the childlike faith Christ speaks of. He will then be able to move effortlessly, even move the snow in his way.

I love the takeaway in this, and how every one of us can apply it. We all have situations and trials we get stuck in, and our best labors will not get us out. But as children of God, we must choose to identify in our roles as sons and daughters of God. The particular intricacies of our trials obviously all vary with the uniqueness of our personal lives. But to be children of God is the keystone to our existence and our purposes in every relationship. When we get stuck, maybe we just need to get back to that premise, that foundation of who we are. Maybe then we will be able to move in the storms designed to take us out, but our roles as God’s children will instead move us through.

Current Events, Essays and Thoughts

Covid Vaccine Detox

January 28, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 14 Comments

I’ve been asked to present my research findings on detoxing from the covid vaccine, specifically I’m detailing spike protein damage and detox, and graphene oxide detox.

Here are my notes for anyone interested. The formatting isn’t quite right because of how wordpress has changed my document. I’ll insert the document in a word document at the end for anyone who wants to download it.

Overview

The vax, according to Robert Malone, is known to open the blood-brain barrier, cause cell damage (cytotoxicity), and is “active in manipulating the biology of the cells that coat the inside of your blood vessels – vascular endothelial cells, in part through its interaction with ACE2, which controls contraction in the blood vessels, blood pressure and other things.”

The vax causes cells to produce a spike protein <a spike protein is an envelope protein of the coronavirus>

The spike protein invades the body via the endothelium (a single layer of cells, called endothelial cells, which line all your blood vessels and lymphatic vessels. These include your: Arteries. Veins. Capillaries. Lymph capillaries.) and causes inflammation and damage to the vascular system, even independent of the virus. It can cause inflammation and clotting in any tissue in which it accumulates.

The spike protein attaches to the ACE2 receptors, impairing their normal function. [see attachment], triggering any number of issues like autoimmune disease, or abnormal bleeding or clotting, (see insert for ACE2 receptor function)

To gain entry into your cells, it has to bind to either an ACE2 receptor or CD147 (also known as Basigin – BSG). CD147 in a simplest explanation is a mediator to inflammatory and immune responses.

The spike protein must be proteolytically cleaved (cut) for it to cause damage. Otherwise it would just attach to the receptor without entry. Because it is cut (not a natural occuring thing), is a damning indication that it was created through gain of function. Being cut enables its entry into these cells that otherwise protect your body.

Tropism is the term for the cells that the spike protein can infect. There are 31 specific cells classified for tropism for the spike protein:

Blood Prostate Salivary gland

Spleen Adrenal Gland Adipose tissue

Bone marrow Bladder Thyroid

Brain Liver Heart

Blood vessel Colon Kidney

Muscle Lungs Testis

Pituitary Fallopian tube Small intestine

Skin Ovary

Stomach Esophagus

Cervix uteri Pancreas

Nerve Breast

Uterus Vagina

The first case of postmortem study of a patient vaccinated against covid found the spike protein all over the body. The immune system’s response to foreign peptides pervasively in every organ? Endothelial destruction.

Preventing the spike protein from entering our cells is our primary objective to protect our body.

The spike protein aggregates p53 [“guardian of the genome”, a tumor suppressing gene that prevents cancer formation], rendering it ineffective, causing unhindered cancer progression

The body forms antibodies against the spike protein which are supposed to render the virus harmful

The spike protein is shed by the vaxxed through skin, breathing and bodily fluids.

Dr. Zelenko: “Covid-19 poison death shots create killer antibodies and killer antibodies are time bombs that get triggered by exposure to matching viral infections.”

The spike protein caries many risks….

Risk of integration into DNA
- Which can increase cancer
- Could permanently produce the spike protein
Can lead to inflammation
- Lungs, heart, vascular walls (think blood clots)
- Binds to the ACE2 receptors in these tissues
Excess antibodies from the spike protein leads to autoimmune disorders/diseases
INFERTILITY: The spike protein is similar to syncytin (a protein needed to form the placenta), which interferes with the body’s ability to get pregnant because of the formation of autoantibodies AGAINST synctin
Risk of development of ADE (Antibody Dependent Enhancement)
- Because it binds instead of neutralizes antibodies, causing a cytokine storm (excessive immune reaction) with massive inflammatory responses (especially in the respiratory tract), and can lead to death.
Risk of developing HIV (Human Immunodefeciency Viruses)
The lipid nanoparticles include:
- PEG (polyethylene glycol) which roughly 70% of the population is allergic to
  - Triggers allergic reactions, including anaphylactic shock
- Cationic lipids
  - Which are cytotoxic, causing cell damage and inflammation
Contains graphene oxide
- Which causes inflammation of mucous membranes
  - Including pneumonia, loss of sense of taste and smell, blood clots
- Deplete glutathione (an essential detox molecule of the body)
- Contains strong magnetic properties

GOAL:

Breakdown and eliminate spike protein as quickly as possible.
Detox the effects of graphene oxide and lipid nanoparticles.

THERAPY STRATEGIES TO MEET DETOX GOALS

****Intermittent Fasting (aka: time restricted eating)

Condense your eating window to 6-8 hours in a 24 hour period, drinking only water during the fasted times.
Promotes immune system homoeostasis….
Through the process of autophagy
- Removes damaged cells and mitochondria
- Clears misfolded and foreign proteins
- Counteracts inflammation and autoimmune reactions
- Promotes the breakdown and elimination of the spike protein
Avoid if pregnant or breastfeeding, or under 18 years of age.
Persons with diabetes or underlying medical conditions should be monitored by a physician or qualified person.

***[regular sauna usage stimulates autophagy, enhances detoxification, helps the body eliminate pathogens, produces heat-shock proteins which enhances autophagy of misfolded proteins]***

Ivermectin .2-.3 mg/kg for 4-6 weeks

Take with food or after a meal
Halts the crystalline growth of graphene oxide hydrogels inside the body
Anti-inflammatory properties
- Binds to the spike protein to aide in elimination in the host
Quercetin and ivermectin should NOT be taken simultaneously. If taking both, stagger them morning/night.

Hydroxychloroquine (HCQ) 200mg 2x/day for 7-14 days WITH 25-50mg Zinc , reduce to 200mg/day as tolerated (after 7-14 days)

This is a second line agent if Ivermectin is not an option.
Reduce dosage to 100-150 mg/day for long term usage.
Must use HCQ WITH ZINC for the benefit.

Vitamin C 1000 mg 3-4x/daily

Try to get vitamin C high doses from foods vs. ascorbic acid (long term) – your body absorbs it better.
Vitamin C protects our biomolecules (i.e. DNA and cell membranes) from oxidation and reverses oxidation by donating missing electrons.
Take C in frequent smaller doses rather than one large dose; the body will absorb it better.

Multiple delivery methods of Vitamin C:

Ascorbyl palmitate (fat soluble form)
Liposomal Vitamin C (encased in fat droplets)
Sodium Ascorbate (sodium with vitamin C) – less acidic

Intravenous vitamin C: 25g/week — with oral vitamin C 1000mg 2-3x/day

**caustic to the veins!!! Must give it slowly over 2-4 hours!

Dose: 7.5-15g initially, up to 8-12g daily total.

High dosages of vitamin C can cause kidney stones!! Avoid if have a history of kidney stones and/or consider STONE BREAKER simultaneously.
If you take more than 10,000 iu of D3/day, STOP consuming dairy and Vitamin C supplements to avoid CALCIUM CLOTS!
Take vitamin C with magnesium for maximum benefit.

Magnesium 500mg/day

Magnesium is involved in our metabolic functions (80% of them!), energy production, and the production of proteins and genetic material.
Magnesium and C act synergistically to kill viruses and bacteria, and to reduce oxidation.

Multiple delivery methods of Magnesium:

Magnesium Glycinate (magnesium bound to amino acid: glycine)
- Highly absorbable
- Body needs glycine to synthesize glutathione and collagen
Magnesium Threonate
- Crosses the blood brain barrier, counteracts neurological disorders
[Liposomal Magnesium (fat soluble) – easy to overdose on this one without warning]

If you get diarrhea, back off your dosage. Diarrhea is the first symptom of magnesium overload which will lead to toxicity with symptoms of fatigue, blood pressure drop, muscle weakness and respiratory depression.

Quercetin 250-500mg/day *must take with Zinc 25-50mg/day

Quercetin is an effective substitute for HCQ
Anti-inflammatory, inhibits mast cells, reduces neuroinflammation
Do NOT take with Ivermectin simultaneously! Stagger morning/evening.
Use with caution if have pre-existent thyroid disease and/or hypothyroidism. Monitor TSH levels.

Zinc 50mg/day

Adjust your intake if you have zinc in any other form (like in a multivitamin). Do not exceed 50mg/day.
Zinc blocks viral replication by inhibiting RNA dependent RNA polymerase within the cell

NAC (N-acetyl cysteine) 600-1500mg 2x/day *take with zinc for efficacy

(For acute cases may take 4-5x/day)

Take 600-750mg NAC with 50mg Zinc first thing in the morning on an empty stomach to reduce graphene oxide
- LaQuinta Columna’s secondary protocol for graphene oxide:
  - Astaxanthin 5mg, Querectin, milk thistle, D3
NAC is more effective when injected vs. ingested
NAC’s effectiveness starts decreasing after three months
NAC is a precursor to glutathione
Studies showed far more effectiveness of NAC against the spike protein when coupled with 20mg of Bromelain

Glutathione

Considered the Master Detoxifier for graphene oxide
At age 65 the body’s levels of glutathione fall drastically
Graphene oxide depletes our glutathione levels
[Glutathione is found largely in the liver (the major detoxification organ)]
One of the body’s most important antioxidants
Detoxes the spike protein and nanoparticles
Excellent to offset with NAC – remember that NAC weakens after three months
***Use Liposomal Glutathione*** 500mg/day
- Because the gastrointestinal tract degrades conventional glutathione

Vitamin D3 with Vitamin K 4-5000units D3/day with 100mcg Vitamin K/day

Always take D3 and K together!
Make sure K has K1 and K2 with Menaquinone 4 and Menaquinone 7
Take in the morning or early afternoon because it can disrupt sleep and inhibit melatonin production
Take with fats for better absorption

Omega 3 2000+ mg/day [DHA/EPA 4g/day]

Take with fats for better absorption
MUST come from fish/algae (marine) sources NOT flaxseed. Our body cannot convert flaxseed oil omegas efficiently!
Anti-inflammatory, aids cardiovascular health

Liquid Zeolite“Clean Slate” start with 2 drops 2x/day, slowly increase to 10 drops 2x/day

From natural minerals, has a negative charge that attracts heavy metals, radioactive particles, pesticides, herbicides, toxins, and intercepts effects of EMFs at a cellular level.
They tell you to take it in powder form to detox the intestines and liquid forms for organs and to cross the blood-brain barrier.
Do NOT take within one hour of other supplements.
Take on an EMPTY stomach.

Suramin

Called the “antidote” to the poison by Dr. Judy Mikovitz. Suramin is the pharmaceutical drub that comes from Shikimate.
Comes from pine needles (spruce, cedar, fir), star anise, fennel…. SHIKIMATE/Shikimic Acid
Dissolves mucus, kills parasites, antiviral, anti-parasitic, anti-fungal, anti-inflammatory
Counteracts blood clots
Used in Tamiflu
Many online recipes for making Pine Needle Tea
Look up David Avocado Wolf online for more information.
Do NOT use if pregnant! Can cause miscarriage/spontaneous abortion!

Nattokinase 100mg or 2000 FUs

An enzyme extracted from the Japanese food called “Natto” (boiled soybeans that have been fermented with a specific bacteria)
Dissolves blood clots, clears arterial walls, increases blood flow
Degrades the spike protein
Do NOT take if pregnant, nursing, or on blood thinners!!!!

Hydration work up to 2 liters of water/day

Water with Himilayan salt and fresh lemon (or lime) drops
Consume half a liter upon waking, work up to two bottles a day

Nigella Sativa (black cumin) 200-500mg 2x/day

Do NOT take if on cyclosporine and phenytoin, or if undergoing anesthesia***

Melatonin 2-6mg of extended or slow release at bedtime

May have to start with 1 mg and work up

Probiotics/prebiotics daily

Consider Kefir instead of supplements for better efficiency

ASEA Redox – “Water of Life”

Claims to increase endogenous glutathione production 5-800% in the body
Claims to detoxifies graphene oxide, nanoparticles and spike protein
Increases mitochondria production
Sodium chloride in distilled water
MLM company recommended by Dr. Rima
CAVEAT: Do your own research on this. These are claims I have not substantiated.

Rooibas Tea

Considered a meta-antioxidant, detoxifier.
One cup of Rooibos tea is equivalent to 50 cups of green tea in antioxidant effect.
Hydrating.

Other Misc. natural supplements:

NANA-ME (N-acetyl Neuraminic Acid Methyl Ester)

CBD oil/Cannabis

Nigella Seed

Chlorine Oxide

Sodium Bicarbonate E500 (baking soda, make sure it doesn’t have aluminum)

Super Blue Green Algae

MMS (Miracle Mineral Supplement)

Chlorine dioxide
See Jim Humble protocol online

Nutraceuticals

eg: Dandelion and broccoli sprout powder, carbon 60 – C60 fullerenes, etc.

Pharmaceuticals:

Aspirin 81mg/day with food

Low dose Naltrexone (LDN 1mg/day, increase to 4.5 mg/day for 2-3 months

Low dose corticosteroid 10-15mg/day prednisone for 21 days

Taper to 10 mg/day (or as tolerated)
Taper to 5 mg/day (or as tolerated)

Fluvoxamine start low dose 12.5mg/day, increase slowly as tolerated

Spike Protein Inhibitors

Prunella vulgaris
Pine needles
Emodin
Neem
Dandelion leaf extract
Ivermectin

Spike Protein Neutralizers

NAC
Glutathione
Fennel tea
Star anise tea
Pine needle tea
St. John’s wort
Comfrey leaf
Vitamin C

OTHER THERAPIES

Non-invasive brain stimulation (NIBS) – for cognitive function
- Rehab centers, can be done at home with training
Behavioral Modification
Mindfulness Therapy
Psychological Support
Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy
Whole Body Vibration Therapy
Cold Hydrotherapy
Tai-Chi
- Form of traditional Chinese martial art
Detox baths
- Bentonite Clay
- Borax, pink Himilayan salt, Espom salts, baking soda (no aluminum!)
Prayer

Example of a Supplement Protocol by Dr. Alina Lessenich [of Body, Mind, Soul Academy]

An intake example for the supplements specified in the detoxification protocol with times of day and dosages:

Directly after getting up:
– 10 drops of liquid zeolite Clean Slate in water

For Breakfast:
– 1 tbsp. liquid liposomal vitamin C, 3000mg
– 1 capsule vitamin D3, K2, 5000 IU, 180µg
[– multivitamin]
– 1 capsule quercetin, 250mg
– 1 capsule NAC, 600mg

Before Noon:
– ½ teaspoon of sodium ascorbate in water, about 1500 – 2000mg

For Lunch:
– 1 capsule ascorbyl palmitate, 500mg
– 1 capsule magnesium glycinate, 200mg
– B-complex
– liquid B12, 1000µg

In the Afternoon:
– liquid liposomal glutathione, 750mg
– ½ tea spoon sodium ascorbate in water, about 1500 – 2000mg

For Dinner:
– 10ml Omega-3, 2000mg
– 2 capsules liposomal Vitamin C, 500mg
– 1 capsule ascorbyl palmitate, 500mg
– 3 capsules magnesium glycinate, 200mg
– 1 capsule quercetin, 250mg

Before going to bed:
– 10 drops of liquid zeolite Clean Slate in water

Things to consider:
– vitamin D should be taken in the morning or not later than in the early afternoon, as it inhibits the production of our sleep hormone melatonin, which can lead to sleep disturbances
– there are people for whom vitamin C has a stimulating effect and who`d better avoid taking vitamin C in the evening
– the fat-soluble vitamin D and the omega-3 fatty acids should be taken together with fat (a few nuts in your cereal or a little olive oil on your salad are sufficient, though)
– for zinc, please adjust the dose to the amount of zinc in the multivitamin: if no
multivitamin is taken, then 50mg of zinc, if the multivitamin already contains 25mg of zinc, for example, then 25mg of zinc in a monopreparation is sufficient
– make sure to always take your zeolite independently (with a gap of about 1 hour) from all other medications and supplements

Detox Protocol COVID Vaccines/Protection From Shedding

Supplements in short:

Substances that will help the body detox spike protein, graphene oxide, and lipid nanoparticles, and that will help protect the body from their damaging effects and regenerate biomolecules:

– 6 – 12g Vitamin C, according to Thomas Levy`s Multi-C Protocol (liposomal vitamin C, sodium ascorbate, ascorbyl palmitate)
– 400 – 1000mg Magnesium
– 5000 – 10 000 IU Vitamin D3 (depending on blood levels)
– at least 150 µg Vitamin K2
– 500 – 750mg Liposomal Glutathione (depending on preparation)
– 50mg Zinc
– 500 – 1000mg Quercetin
– Pine Needle Tea
– 2000 FUs Nattokinase
– 600 – 3000mg NAC (600mg twice a day as prophylaxis, 600mg up to 4 or 5 times a day in acute cases)
– 2000mg Omega-3 (EPA/DHA)
– 10 drops of liquid zeolite Clean Slate twice a day
– 1000 – 2000µg Liquid B12
– Vitamin B-Complex
[– Multivitamin]
Adjust as necessary.

THE GOD PART OF THIS EQUATION

I cannot expound on a manmade problem without offering a God solution. I have been severely grieved by the implications and realities of the covid vaccine.

Once when I was talking with God about it, lamenting the many Christians I knew that were deceived and/or frightened into getting the vaccine to their peril, I was reminded of the account of the Israelites who grumbled in the desert and God sent venomous vipers that bit and killed many of them. [Numbers 21:4-9] Then He sent the remedy: a bronze snake on a pole. If one was bit, they only had to look up at the bronze snake after being bit and were healed. There is zero science for this. This is supernatural.

Of course this was a shadow of the provision of Christ millennia later. [John 3:14-14]

I know there is supernatural provision where there is no natural. Faith is the necessary component to activate the provision.

Here are the documents in Word document format. (I think it’s much easier to read and print from in this format.):

Covax-Detox-notes-for-Health-meeting-1 Download

What-is-the-ACE2-receptor Download

Resources I gleaned information from:

FrontLine doctors protocol here: https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/12/I-RECOVER-Post-Vaccine-Summary.pdf

FrontLine doctors protocol package of detailed information here: https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/12/I-RECOVER-Post-Vaccine-Protocol.pdf

Dr. Alina Lessinch detox protocol (on the handout): https://speakingaboutnews.com/detox-protocol-covid-vaccines-protection-from-shedding/

Dr. Alina Lessinch’s website for her Body Mind Soul Academy (I think she’s German, so the protocols are NOT in English, which is why I linked you to the above article that has translated the protocol): https://drlessenich.com/en/toxin-removal-protocols#pll_switcher

David Avocado Wolf’s spike protein notes here: https://ambassadorlove.blog/2021/06/24/summary-of-the-spike-protein-protocol-david-avocado-wolf/

Dr. Zelenko’s website for ordering immune support products (some especially for covid/vaccine): https://zstacklife.com/?ref=j25twk74kl

NAC reduces graphene oxide here: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/30892320/

Spike protein impairs endothelial function: https://www.ahajournals.org/doi/10.1161/CIRCRESAHA.121.318902

Initial study about ASEA Redox affecting important signaling pathway genes: https://mediafilelibrary.myasealive.com/src/media/xmfl/file/ASEA%20REDOX%20Gene%20Science%20Summary%20EN.pdf

Order ASEA Redox from Dr. Ariyana Love’s website here: https://drariyanalove.myasealive.com/

Study Dr. Zelenko references about NANE-ME preventing antibody dependent enhancement: https://www.biorxiv.org/content/10.1101/2021.07.13.452194v2.full.pdf

Protocol for the vaxxed, breakdown of supplements and miscellaneous info: https://www.gigibelser.com/current-events

Tropism, the spike protein throughout the body: https://wmcresearch.substack.com/p/tropism-why-the-spike-protein-can

How to remove graphene oxide from the body: https://expose-news.com/2022/07/15/how-to-remove-graphene-oxide-the-dangerous-undisclosed-ingredient-in-covid-vaccines-from-the-body/

Dr. Mercola on how to detox from the spike protein…. This has a much more extensive list of supplements: https://knightspirit.com/home/bridging-the-gap-between-what-was-and-what-will-be/how-to-detox-spike-protein-after-covid-or-vaccine-dr-mercola/

Dr. Mercola again on detox: https://www.organicconsumers.org/news/how-detox-spike-protein-after-covid-or-vaccine

CD147: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/24372217/

Order Clean Slate (liquid zeolite) here: https://www.liquid-zeolite-detox.com/clean-slate

Very good overview of zeolite toxin removals (hit the x if it goes straight to ordering without the content): https://zeolitefordetox.com/zeolite-detox-protocol/

Dr. Rima Laibow’s protocol:

NAC 900mg/day

Vitamin D3 10,000 IU/day

Co-Q 10 400mg/day

Biotin 10mg/day

L-Glutamine 1000mg/day

Hyaluronic Acid 60mg/day

DHEA Fish Oil (liquid) 1Tbsp/day

Vitamin E w mixed tocotrienols and tocopherols 1000mg/day

Dr. Rima’s website: https://drrimainstitute.com/

Dreams, Raw

my course correction

January 2, 2023 eternalissues@cox.net 6 Comments

I think for the impact of this course correction and the profoundness it weighed on me to be understood with any chance of it helping another, I will have to expound on the background of the setting. I apologize if it’s too detailed, but to leave out some may cause the effect to be lost, and then what’s the point?

The background is that I spend untold of hours as a watchman on the wall, scanning the landscape for threat or even hints of threat coming off the horizon. In the process of operating at my post, I am compelled to evaluate perceived threats for their seriousness. To do that, I must look past the surface and superficial, and really look at the nuts and bolts of something to the best of my abilities. A headline, for instance, is not enough information to warrant a warning. A whole article is not usually enough.

There’s more to that, but the point of it is that I spend a lot of hours in dark holes of malicious intent and nefarious connections and roots. The past few years have been heavy, and the past several months have worn me down considerably. After awhile I realized I have not heard from God personally in quite some time – longer than usual. In fact, the darkness of the hole I was in had swallowed the light and I have been scanning to see and hear God. I have been desperate for some sort of balance to the dismal future I see before humanity.

From my journal entry: I have been crying out to God for weeks upon weeks now. I have not been able to see, hear, or perceive Him. I have been in a shadow, a place I couldn’t understand or discern rightly. I have been looking for God – straining to hear Him. The blackness of this world – the corrupt state of our nation – the seeming lostness of my children – all of it has taken its toll and I have been in a dismal, dark place. I have been looking, looking, looking for Him. Where is He right now? What is He doing? What is He thinking? How can I join Him if I don’t know where He is? What He’s doing? Has my soul become polluted from the cesspools I’ve been mortified by? Has my heart gotten hardened by the depravity of our society and the growing cynicism in my heart? Is He upset with me because my faith is so weak right now? I have been watching and reporting on the darkness for so long now, have I become unable to see what He, the Light, is doing? These have been some of the questions haunting me that I have been echoing to my God.

And sentiments like this have been my continual prayer before God for weeks upon weeks now, in between tasks, when I lie down at night and rise in the morning.

I have the gift of faith, so faith comes easy for me. I usually have enough faith for me and whatever community is around me. I have no problem believing God. Yet in November I confided to a couple of my best friends that I had never known my faith to be so weak. I set myself to see what was the root. I set myself before God.

I’ve been waiting. And waiting.

It got better as I set myself to read His Word more consistently, to set aside time to meditate and just be before Him. But I still hadn’t heard from Him. I’ve learned over the years how to posture myself to see and/or hear God when I need to. I’m used to seasons of silence. It doesn’t bother me, because I’ve learned He speaks and moves faithfully. I’ve learned how to wait upon Him and wait for Him. This was different. This time was not like the rest. It was nothingness. Not a silence as in He wasn’t speaking, but a nothingness as in is He even there?

Then Friday night, I was going to be alone again because Bill had to work late again. I threw some leftovers in the oven and sat by the fire to eat them around 8:30pm. As usual, I am talking to God on the in-betweens of thoughts and actions. I sat down cross-legged in my chair before the fire, the plate on my lap, continued the last thought I had before Him, and as I picked up my fork to take a bite He said, “I’m right here, Michelle.”

He interrupted me, and I stopped, fork mid-air. It’s been quite awhile that I’ve been looking for Him so I wondered if my mind was playing tricks on me, if maybe I said it to myself to comfort myself…. (Though I wouldn’t say it like that, and it interrupted my own thoughts enough to startle me.)

The next morning was Christmas Eve morning, and I awoke at 5:58am with the following dream (see excerpt).

I got out of bed, went to the living room and built a fire. I sat there silently. Everything faded. Every other person in my life faded so far in the background I couldn’t see them anymore (though I knew they were there), and it was just me and God. [Almost like it used to be but also like it is now and should be.]

I was cognizant at that moment of just me and God.

There were no real thoughts at that time. No words. No prayers. I half-expected Him to speak but thought that He probably wouldn’t. This morning as I sat by the early fire and all the world faded to the background, I heard it again, “I’m right here, Michelle.”

He’s right here…..

I began talking with Him about the dream, and He began showing me some things. [It would take the next three days to unpack different parts of it and what they meant, which I’ll share in a minute.] I was at that place where it was still me and God – that “I’m right here, Michelle” place. And I saw the landscape of the dream (and I use dream lightly here), and thought how I needed that place of the dream, that place unscathed by man, and Psalm 91 came to me…

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty…”

Abide. Abide. Abide.

The key.

I must abide, dwell, live in the secret place….

In the dream, Bill symbolized Christ and we were walking and talking in the spiritual domain, in the spiritual terrain. It was untouched by man for as far as I could see. It was peace and safety and rest. I was telling Bill/Christ the burdens of my heart, the questions I had, the weight I was carrying. But it couldn’t touch me there. I was safe there. I was at peace there. I was happy there.

Abide. Abide. Abide. This is where I must abide, the secret place. The place untouched by man.

I was so happy there that I had the conscious thought of building a reprieve there. I knew I couldn’t live there because it was detached from my responsible life, but I knew I could go there. I thought about how we would build it and with what.

As I sat there with the Lord, the whole Psalm unfolded before me.

I know there are many facets to the truths and promises in this Psalm, but a couple things struck me: “NO EVIL SHALL BEFALL YOU….no plague come near your tent.”

The promise of THAT alone, the surety and assuredness in it are overwhelming. If God is my dwelling place – the place where I live, where I abide – evil cannot befall me. The plague cannot enter my home.

Our love for God, for Christ, puts us in a position that safeguards our vulnerability. For so long now, decades, I have felt secure and not afraid for my life – almost assured nothing could touch me apart from the will of God. I couldn’t tell you why I was sure harm (in the form of evil kind of harm) could not touch me. I just knew it – felt it in my bones. In some ways it felt like an invincible sort of spirit. I didn’t tempt evil to come get me by putting myself in deliberately precarious positions, I just didn’t fear evil.

It’s not that I was safe or impervious to struggle or hardship or pain or any number of situations that happen just from being a human and living on this earth. I’m not talking about being spared from such like that. There are various kinds of harm, hurts, and pains. I want to be clear here. I have just always felt certain forms of evil I was immune to – like they couldn’t touch me – only would I see the evil around me, but not personally on me.

This Psalm explains that which I’ve felt as my reality. It may be happening all around me; I may see it with my own two eyes, but it will not touch me.

And this matters. This matters a great deal to me. Because I spend a significant portion of my waking hours studying the works of evil in our society and in our world. I have been disturbed by the implications of human cloning, transhumanism, and Artificial Intelligence. The impact and capabilities of the new technologies to control human thought and action through nanoparticles injected (or even swallowed in food, water or air) and using cellular, wireless and Bluetooth technology to employ such, has mortified me. What chance does humanity have over these schemes? People can be infected unwillingly and unwittingly. What precaution or shield do we have for THAT??

As I sat before the Lord and this Psalm came back to me, I marveled at the provision of God. God is able. God is willing. All of this destruction – weather modification, bioengineered pandemics, transhumanism, mind control – is not outside the sphere of God’s sovereignty. And He will protect WHOM from it?? He who sets his love upon God.

Selah

We will see and know the SALVATION – saving from harm or destruction – of the Almighty.

What a promise! What a glorious, glorious promise!

“I’m right here, Michelle.”

I’m not a god far off. I’m right here.

The Spirit helped me understand the other pieces of the dream after this. Anytime Ken Ellis is mentioned in my dreams, it’s how God signals that it’s a direct word from God. [long personal story, but there’s a reason for this – also, his name means “royal oath, mouthpiece of God” – another way God underscores for me to pay attention]

In the dream I’m told of an account Ken told about a date in the 1800s where apparently the world was in a state of despair. As he was telling me in the dream I could actually see (like watching a movie) a sidewalk scene where there were people in 1800s period clothing walking. The countenance of the people were lifted in a noticeable and measurable way when they encountered someone who smiled and was happy. Bill (Christ) said, “Maybe we’re missing it, Michelle.” This was my course correction.

Be in the moment with those you’re with. The despair and heaviness in the earth for those who endeavor righteousness is tangible. There’s a growing despair over the wickedness of the days of Lot we’re in. [actually read and contemplate 2 Peter 2:4-10] My stiletto moment in the dream was this moment: “Maybe we’re missing it Michelle”. I can’t recapture the whole monologue Bill (Christ) told of the Ken Ellis message of a century or two ago, but its essence has stayed with me plainly. We carry the hope of Christ within us. The joy of the Lord is our strength. This is our weapon in the midst of depravity and its ensuing despair.

We are kept by abiding in the secret place of the Most High, under the shadow of the Almighty. Because we love God and have set our hearts upon Him, He delivers us from the wickedness around us. The bioengineered weapons the enemy is using, the nanoparticles of control the enemy is deploying, the technology that invades our spheres, these are not pervious if we are abiding in the secret place. It can’t get to us, and we are filled with joy and gratitude for the provision of our King for our defense. That joy manifests in our peace in a world of conflict and turmoil. That joy can be passed to those around us in despair. Our attitudes, our spirits, can help those around us.

The only thing I saw in the scenery of my dream that was man-made was an unmarked rancher’s arch that was broken at the top right. In the dream I marveled at how it was still standing and why it hadn’t fallen because of its brokenness. The Spirit told me it represented the institutions of man and its infrastructure. Just like I know today that the institutions of man are broken and I cannot understand how they are still standing.

God is a personal God. He speaks to us where we are. That was in my dream to show me God knows my heart, has heard my questions. Maybe I’ll get the answer and maybe I won’t. But He has heard and He spoke my heart back to me.

There were other things He spoke to me about through that dream, but that was the essence I wanted to share publicly (and there are other parts of the dream I didn’t share). I thought there may be others who fight despair, who have wondered where God is, who have questions, who are seeking…. Maybe it will help someone else. He’s right here.

If He’s silent on the battlefront right now, He’s not absent. I think He’s calling His children to abide in the secret place, to secure the protections and provisions that come from that intimate relationship with our Creator and Father. I think He’s telling us to carry the hope of Christ to those around us, to smile, to share our joy and our hope, our faith and our peace, to lift others out of that place of heaviness and despair, of fear and doubt, even though the world may be in darkness. We are not, and we represent the One who saves.