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Covid Vaccine Detox

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I’ve been asked to present my research findings on detoxing from the covid vaccine, specifically I’m detailing spike protein damage and detox, and graphene oxide detox.

Here are my notes for anyone interested. The formatting isn’t quite right because of how wordpress has changed my document. I’ll insert the document in a word document at the end for anyone who wants to download it.

Overview

The vax, according to Robert Malone, is known to open the blood-brain barrier, cause cell damage (cytotoxicity), and is “active in manipulating the biology of the cells that coat the inside of your blood vessels – vascular endothelial cells, in part through its interaction with ACE2, which controls contraction in the blood vessels, blood pressure and other things.”

The vax causes cells to produce a spike protein  <a spike protein is an envelope protein of the coronavirus>

The spike protein invades the body via the endothelium (a single layer of cells, called endothelial cells, which line all your blood vessels and lymphatic vessels. These include your: Arteries. Veins. Capillaries. Lymph capillaries.)  and causes inflammation and damage to the vascular system, even independent of the virus.  It can cause inflammation and clotting in any tissue in which it accumulates.

The spike protein attaches to the ACE2 receptors, impairing their normal function.  [see attachment], triggering any number of issues like autoimmune disease, or abnormal bleeding or clotting, (see insert for ACE2 receptor function)

  1. To gain entry into your cells, it has to bind to either an ACE2 receptor or CD147 (also known as Basigin – BSG).  CD147 in a simplest explanation is a mediator to inflammatory and immune responses. 

  1. The spike protein must be proteolytically cleaved (cut) for it to cause damage.  Otherwise it would just attach to the receptor without entry.  Because it is cut (not a natural occuring thing), is a damning indication that it was created through gain of function.  Being cut enables its entry into these cells that otherwise protect your body.

Tropism is the term for the cells that the spike protein can infect.  There are 31 specific cells classified for tropism for the spike protein:

Blood                                                                    Prostate                                               Salivary gland

Spleen                                                                  Adrenal Gland                                   Adipose tissue

Bone marrow                                                    Bladder                                                                Thyroid

Brain                                                                      Liver                                                      Heart

Blood vessel                                                       Colon                                                    Kidney

Muscle                                                                 Lungs                                                    Testis

Pituitary                                                               Fallopian tube                                   Small intestine

Skin                                                                        Ovary

Stomach                                                              Esophagus

Cervix uteri                                                         Pancreas

Nerve                                                                   Breast

Uterus                                                                  Vagina

The first case of postmortem study of a patient vaccinated against covid found the spike protein all over the body.  The immune system’s response to foreign peptides pervasively in every organ?  Endothelial destruction.

Preventing the spike protein from entering our cells is our primary objective to protect our body.

The spike protein aggregates p53 [“guardian of the genome”, a tumor suppressing gene that prevents cancer formation], rendering it ineffective, causing unhindered cancer progression

The body forms antibodies against the spike protein which are supposed to render the virus harmful

The spike protein is shed by the vaxxed through skin, breathing and bodily fluids.

Dr. Zelenko:  “Covid-19 poison death shots create killer antibodies and killer antibodies are time bombs that get triggered by exposure to matching viral infections.”

The spike protein caries many risks….

  • Risk of integration into DNA
    • Which can increase cancer
    • Could permanently produce the spike protein
  • Can lead to inflammation
    • Lungs, heart, vascular walls (think blood clots)
    • Binds to the ACE2 receptors in these tissues
  • Excess antibodies from the spike protein leads to autoimmune disorders/diseases
  • INFERTILITY:  The spike protein is similar to syncytin (a protein needed to form the placenta), which interferes with the body’s ability to get pregnant because of the formation of autoantibodies AGAINST synctin
  • Risk of development of ADE (Antibody Dependent Enhancement)
    • Because it binds instead of neutralizes antibodies, causing a cytokine storm (excessive immune reaction) with massive inflammatory responses (especially in the respiratory tract), and can lead to death.
  • Risk of developing HIV  (Human Immunodefeciency Viruses)
  • The lipid nanoparticles include:
    • PEG (polyethylene glycol) which roughly 70% of the population is allergic to
      • Triggers allergic reactions, including anaphylactic shock
    • Cationic lipids
      • Which are cytotoxic, causing cell damage and inflammation
  • Contains graphene oxide
    • Which causes inflammation of mucous membranes
      • Including pneumonia, loss of sense of taste and smell, blood clots
    • Deplete glutathione (an essential detox molecule of the body)
    • Contains strong magnetic properties

GOAL:

  • Breakdown and eliminate spike protein as quickly as possible.
  • Detox the effects of graphene oxide and lipid nanoparticles.

THERAPY STRATEGIES TO MEET DETOX GOALS

****Intermittent Fasting   (aka:  time restricted eating)

  • Condense your eating window to 6-8 hours in a 24 hour period, drinking only water during the fasted times.
  • Promotes immune system homoeostasis….
  • Through the process of autophagy
    • Removes damaged cells and mitochondria
    • Clears misfolded and foreign proteins
    • Counteracts inflammation and autoimmune reactions
    • Promotes the breakdown and elimination of the spike protein
  • Avoid if pregnant or breastfeeding, or under 18 years of age.
  • Persons with diabetes or underlying medical conditions should be monitored by a physician or qualified person.

***[regular sauna usage stimulates autophagy, enhances detoxification, helps the body eliminate pathogens, produces heat-shock proteins which enhances autophagy of misfolded proteins]***

Ivermectin                              .2-.3 mg/kg for 4-6 weeks

  • Take with food or after a meal
  • Halts the crystalline growth of graphene oxide hydrogels inside the body
  • Anti-inflammatory properties
    • Binds to the spike protein to aide in elimination in the host
  • Quercetin and ivermectin should NOT be taken simultaneously.  If taking both, stagger them morning/night.

Hydroxychloroquine (HCQ)            200mg 2x/day for 7-14 days WITH 25-50mg Zinc , reduce to 200mg/day as tolerated (after 7-14 days)

  • This is a second line agent if Ivermectin is not an option.
  • Reduce dosage to 100-150 mg/day for long term usage.
  • Must use HCQ WITH ZINC for the benefit.

Vitamin C                  1000 mg 3-4x/daily

  • Try to get vitamin C high doses from foods vs. ascorbic acid (long term) – your body absorbs it better.
  • Vitamin C protects our biomolecules (i.e. DNA and cell membranes) from oxidation and reverses oxidation by donating missing electrons.
  • Take C in frequent smaller doses rather than one large dose; the body will absorb it better.

Multiple delivery methods of Vitamin C:

  • Ascorbyl palmitate (fat soluble form)
  • Liposomal Vitamin C (encased in fat droplets)
  • Sodium Ascorbate (sodium with vitamin C) – less acidic

Intravenous vitamin C:  25g/week — with oral vitamin C 1000mg 2-3x/day

**caustic to the veins!!! Must give it slowly over 2-4 hours! 

Dose:  7.5-15g initially, up to 8-12g daily total.

  • High dosages of vitamin C can cause kidney stones!!  Avoid if have a history of kidney stones and/or consider STONE BREAKER simultaneously.
  • If you take more than 10,000 iu of D3/day, STOP consuming dairy and Vitamin C supplements to avoid CALCIUM CLOTS!
  • Take vitamin C with magnesium for maximum benefit.

Magnesium                            500mg/day

  • Magnesium is involved in our metabolic functions (80% of them!), energy production, and the production of proteins and genetic material.
  • Magnesium and C act synergistically to kill viruses and bacteria, and to reduce oxidation.

Multiple delivery methods of Magnesium:

  • Magnesium Glycinate (magnesium bound to amino acid: glycine)
    • Highly absorbable
    • Body needs glycine to synthesize glutathione and collagen
  • Magnesium Threonate
    • Crosses the blood brain barrier, counteracts neurological disorders
  • [Liposomal Magnesium (fat soluble) – easy to overdose on this one without warning]
  • If you get diarrhea, back off your dosage.  Diarrhea is the first symptom of magnesium overload which will lead to toxicity with symptoms of fatigue, blood pressure drop, muscle weakness and respiratory depression.

Quercetin       250-500mg/day          *must take with Zinc 25-50mg/day

  • Quercetin is an effective substitute for HCQ
  • Anti-inflammatory, inhibits mast cells, reduces neuroinflammation
  • Do NOT take with Ivermectin simultaneously!  Stagger morning/evening.
  • Use with caution if have pre-existent thyroid disease and/or hypothyroidism.  Monitor TSH levels.

Zinc                 50mg/day

  • Adjust your intake if you have zinc in any other form (like in a multivitamin).  Do not exceed 50mg/day.
  • Zinc blocks viral replication by inhibiting RNA dependent RNA polymerase within the cell

NAC  (N-acetyl cysteine)      600-1500mg 2x/day   *take with zinc for efficacy

(For acute cases may take 4-5x/day)

  • Take 600-750mg NAC with 50mg Zinc first thing in the morning on an empty stomach to reduce graphene oxide
    • LaQuinta Columna’s secondary protocol for graphene oxide:
      • Astaxanthin 5mg, Querectin, milk thistle, D3
  • NAC is more effective when injected vs. ingested
  • NAC’s effectiveness starts decreasing after three months
  • NAC is a precursor to glutathione
  • Studies showed far more effectiveness of NAC against the spike protein when coupled with 20mg of Bromelain

Glutathione

  • Considered the Master Detoxifier for graphene oxide
  • At age 65 the body’s levels of glutathione fall drastically
  • Graphene oxide depletes our glutathione levels
  • [Glutathione is found largely in the liver (the major detoxification organ)]
  • One of the body’s most important antioxidants
  • Detoxes the spike protein and nanoparticles
  • Excellent to offset with NAC – remember that NAC weakens after three months
  • ***Use Liposomal Glutathione***  500mg/day
    • Because the gastrointestinal tract degrades conventional glutathione

Vitamin D3 with Vitamin K             4-5000units D3/day with 100mcg Vitamin K/day

  • Always take D3 and K together!
  • Make sure K has K1 and K2 with Menaquinone 4 and Menaquinone 7
  • Take in the morning or early afternoon because it can disrupt sleep and inhibit melatonin production
  • Take with fats for better absorption

Omega 3                     2000+ mg/day  [DHA/EPA 4g/day]

  • Take with fats for better absorption
  • MUST come from fish/algae (marine) sources NOT flaxseed.  Our body cannot convert flaxseed oil omegas efficiently!
  • Anti-inflammatory, aids cardiovascular health

Liquid Zeolite“Clean Slate”  start with 2 drops 2x/day, slowly increase to 10 drops 2x/day

  • From natural minerals, has a negative charge that attracts heavy metals, radioactive particles, pesticides, herbicides, toxins, and intercepts effects of EMFs at a cellular level.
  • They tell you to take it in powder form to detox the intestines and liquid forms for organs and to cross the blood-brain barrier.
  • Do NOT take within one hour of other supplements. 
  • Take on an EMPTY stomach.

Suramin

  • Called the “antidote” to the poison by Dr. Judy Mikovitz.  Suramin is the pharmaceutical drub that comes from Shikimate.
  • Comes from pine needles (spruce, cedar, fir), star anise, fennel…. SHIKIMATE/Shikimic Acid
  • Dissolves mucus, kills parasites, antiviral, anti-parasitic, anti-fungal, anti-inflammatory
  • Counteracts blood clots
  • Used in Tamiflu
  • Many online recipes for making Pine Needle Tea
  • Look up David Avocado Wolf online for more information.
  • Do NOT use if pregnant!  Can cause miscarriage/spontaneous abortion!

Nattokinase                100mg or 2000 FUs

  • An enzyme extracted from the Japanese food called “Natto” (boiled soybeans that have been fermented with a specific bacteria)
  • Dissolves blood clots, clears arterial walls, increases blood flow
  • Degrades the spike protein
  • Do NOT take if pregnant, nursing, or on blood thinners!!!!

Hydration                   work up to 2 liters of water/day

  • Water with Himilayan salt and fresh lemon (or lime) drops
  • Consume half a liter upon waking, work up to two bottles a day

Nigella Sativa (black cumin) 200-500mg 2x/day

  • Do NOT take if on cyclosporine and phenytoin, or if undergoing anesthesia***

Melatonin       2-6mg of extended or slow release at bedtime

  • May have to start with 1 mg and work up

Probiotics/prebiotics daily

  • Consider Kefir instead of supplements for better efficiency

ASEA Redox – “Water of Life” 

  • Claims to increase endogenous glutathione production 5-800% in the body
  • Claims to detoxifies graphene oxide, nanoparticles and spike protein
  • Increases mitochondria production
  • Sodium chloride in distilled water
  • MLM company recommended by Dr. Rima
  • CAVEAT:  Do your own research on this.  These are claims I have not substantiated.

Rooibas Tea

  • Considered a meta-antioxidant, detoxifier.
  • One cup of Rooibos tea is equivalent to 50 cups of green tea in antioxidant effect.
  • Hydrating.

Other Misc. natural supplements:

NANA-ME (N-acetyl Neuraminic Acid Methyl Ester)

CBD oil/Cannabis

Nigella Seed

Chlorine Oxide

Sodium Bicarbonate E500 (baking soda, make sure it doesn’t have aluminum)

Super Blue Green Algae

MMS (Miracle Mineral Supplement)

  • Chlorine dioxide 
  • See Jim Humble protocol online

Nutraceuticals

  • eg:  Dandelion and broccoli sprout powder, carbon 60 – C60 fullerenes, etc.

Pharmaceuticals:

Aspirin           81mg/day with food

Low dose Naltrexone (LDN             1mg/day, increase to 4.5 mg/day for 2-3 months

Low dose corticosteroid                    10-15mg/day prednisone for 21 days

  • Taper to 10 mg/day (or as tolerated)
  • Taper to 5 mg/day (or as tolerated)

Fluvoxamine              start low dose 12.5mg/day, increase slowly as tolerated

Spike Protein Inhibitors

  • Prunella vulgaris
  • Pine needles
  • Emodin
  • Neem
  • Dandelion leaf extract
  • Ivermectin

Spike Protein Neutralizers

  • NAC
  • Glutathione
  • Fennel tea
  • Star anise tea
  • Pine needle tea
  • St. John’s wort
  • Comfrey leaf
  • Vitamin C

OTHER THERAPIES

  • Non-invasive brain stimulation (NIBS) – for cognitive function
    • Rehab centers, can be done at home with training
  • Behavioral Modification
  • Mindfulness Therapy
  • Psychological Support
  • Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy
  • Whole Body Vibration Therapy
  • Cold Hydrotherapy
  • Tai-Chi
    • Form of traditional Chinese martial art
  • Detox baths
    • Bentonite Clay
    • Borax, pink Himilayan salt, Espom salts, baking soda (no aluminum!)
  • Prayer

Example of a Supplement Protocol by Dr. Alina Lessenich  [of Body, Mind, Soul Academy]

An intake example for the supplements specified in the detoxification protocol with times of day and dosages:

Directly after getting up:
– 10 drops of liquid zeolite Clean Slate in water

For Breakfast:
– 1 tbsp. liquid liposomal vitamin C, 3000mg
– 1 capsule vitamin D3, K2, 5000 IU, 180µg
[– multivitamin]
– 1 capsule quercetin, 250mg
– 1 capsule NAC, 600mg

Before Noon:
– ½ teaspoon of sodium ascorbate in water, about 1500 – 2000mg

For Lunch:
– 1 capsule ascorbyl palmitate, 500mg
– 1 capsule magnesium glycinate, 200mg
– B-complex
– liquid B12, 1000µg

In the Afternoon:
– liquid liposomal glutathione, 750mg
– ½ tea spoon sodium ascorbate in water, about 1500 – 2000mg

For Dinner:
– 10ml Omega-3, 2000mg
– 2 capsules liposomal Vitamin C, 500mg
– 1 capsule ascorbyl palmitate, 500mg
– 3 capsules magnesium glycinate, 200mg
– 1 capsule quercetin, 250mg

Before going to bed:
– 10 drops of liquid zeolite Clean Slate in water

Things to consider:
– vitamin D should be taken in the morning or not later than in the early afternoon, as it inhibits the production of our sleep hormone melatonin, which can lead to sleep disturbances
– there are people for whom vitamin C has a stimulating effect and who`d better avoid taking vitamin C in the evening
– the fat-soluble vitamin D and the omega-3 fatty acids should be taken together with fat (a few nuts in your cereal or a little olive oil on your salad are sufficient, though)
– for zinc, please adjust the dose to the amount of zinc in the multivitamin: if no
multivitamin is taken, then 50mg of zinc, if the multivitamin already contains 25mg of zinc, for example, then 25mg of zinc in a monopreparation is sufficient
– make sure to always take your zeolite independently (with a gap of about 1 hour) from all other medications and supplements

Detox Protocol COVID Vaccines/Protection From Shedding

Supplements in short:

Substances that will help the body detox spike protein, graphene oxide, and lipid nanoparticles, and that will help protect the body from their damaging effects and regenerate biomolecules:

– 6 – 12g Vitamin C, according to Thomas Levy`s Multi-C Protocol (liposomal vitamin C, sodium ascorbate, ascorbyl palmitate)
– 400 – 1000mg Magnesium
– 5000 – 10 000 IU Vitamin D3 (depending on blood levels)
– at least 150 µg Vitamin K2
– 500 – 750mg Liposomal Glutathione (depending on preparation)
– 50mg Zinc
– 500 – 1000mg Quercetin
– Pine Needle Tea
– 2000 FUs Nattokinase
– 600 – 3000mg NAC (600mg twice a day as prophylaxis, 600mg up to 4 or 5 times a day in acute cases)
– 2000mg Omega-3 (EPA/DHA)
– 10 drops of liquid zeolite Clean Slate twice a day
– 1000 – 2000µg Liquid B12
– Vitamin B-Complex
[– Multivitamin]
Adjust as necessary.

THE GOD PART OF THIS EQUATION

I cannot expound on a manmade problem without offering a God solution. I have been severely grieved by the implications and realities of the covid vaccine.

Once when I was talking with God about it, lamenting the many Christians I knew that were deceived and/or frightened into getting the vaccine to their peril, I was reminded of the account of the Israelites who grumbled in the desert and God sent venomous vipers that bit and killed many of them. [Numbers 21:4-9] Then He sent the remedy: a bronze snake on a pole. If one was bit, they only had to look up at the bronze snake after being bit and were healed. There is zero science for this. This is supernatural.

Of course this was a shadow of the provision of Christ millennia later. [John 3:14-14]

I know there is supernatural provision where there is no natural. Faith is the necessary component to activate the provision.

Here are the documents in Word document format. (I think it’s much easier to read and print from in this format.):

Covax-Detox-notes-for-Health-meeting-1Download
What-is-the-ACE2-receptorDownload

Resources I gleaned information from:

FrontLine doctors protocol here: https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/12/I-RECOVER-Post-Vaccine-Summary.pdf

FrontLine doctors protocol package of detailed information here: https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/12/I-RECOVER-Post-Vaccine-Protocol.pdf

Dr. Alina Lessinch detox protocol (on the handout): https://speakingaboutnews.com/detox-protocol-covid-vaccines-protection-from-shedding/

Dr. Alina Lessinch’s website for her Body Mind Soul Academy (I think she’s German, so the protocols are NOT in English, which is why I linked you to the above article that has translated the protocol): https://drlessenich.com/en/toxin-removal-protocols#pll_switcher

David Avocado Wolf’s spike protein notes here: https://ambassadorlove.blog/2021/06/24/summary-of-the-spike-protein-protocol-david-avocado-wolf/

Dr. Zelenko’s website for ordering immune support products (some especially for covid/vaccine): https://zstacklife.com/?ref=j25twk74kl

NAC reduces graphene oxide here: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/30892320/

Spike protein impairs endothelial function: https://www.ahajournals.org/doi/10.1161/CIRCRESAHA.121.318902

Initial study about ASEA Redox affecting important signaling pathway genes: https://mediafilelibrary.myasealive.com/src/media/xmfl/file/ASEA%20REDOX%20Gene%20Science%20Summary%20EN.pdf

Order ASEA Redox from Dr. Ariyana Love’s website here: https://drariyanalove.myasealive.com/

Study Dr. Zelenko references about NANE-ME preventing antibody dependent enhancement: https://www.biorxiv.org/content/10.1101/2021.07.13.452194v2.full.pdf

Protocol for the vaxxed, breakdown of supplements and miscellaneous info: https://www.gigibelser.com/current-events

Tropism, the spike protein throughout the body: https://wmcresearch.substack.com/p/tropism-why-the-spike-protein-can

How to remove graphene oxide from the body: https://expose-news.com/2022/07/15/how-to-remove-graphene-oxide-the-dangerous-undisclosed-ingredient-in-covid-vaccines-from-the-body/

Dr. Mercola on how to detox from the spike protein…. This has a much more extensive list of supplements: https://knightspirit.com/home/bridging-the-gap-between-what-was-and-what-will-be/how-to-detox-spike-protein-after-covid-or-vaccine-dr-mercola/

Dr. Mercola again on detox: https://www.organicconsumers.org/news/how-detox-spike-protein-after-covid-or-vaccine

CD147: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/24372217/

Order Clean Slate (liquid zeolite) here: https://www.liquid-zeolite-detox.com/clean-slate

Very good overview of zeolite toxin removals (hit the x if it goes straight to ordering without the content): https://zeolitefordetox.com/zeolite-detox-protocol/

Dr. Rima Laibow’s protocol:

NAC 900mg/day

Vitamin D3 10,000 IU/day

Co-Q 10   400mg/day

Biotin  10mg/day

L-Glutamine  1000mg/day

Hyaluronic Acid  60mg/day

DHEA Fish Oil (liquid)  1Tbsp/day

Vitamin E w mixed tocotrienols and tocopherols   1000mg/day

Dr. Rima’s website: https://drrimainstitute.com/

Dreams, Raw

my course correction

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I think for the impact of this course correction and the profoundness it weighed on me to be understood with any chance of it helping another, I will have to expound on the background of the setting.  I apologize if it’s too detailed, but to leave out some may cause the effect to be lost, and then what’s the point?

The background is that I spend untold of hours as a watchman on the wall, scanning the landscape for threat or even hints of threat coming off the horizon.  In the process of operating at my post, I am compelled to evaluate perceived threats for their seriousness.  To do that, I must look past the surface and superficial, and really look at the nuts and bolts of something to the best of my abilities.  A headline, for instance, is not enough information to warrant a warning.  A whole article is not usually enough. 

There’s more to that, but the point of it is that I spend a lot of hours in dark holes of malicious intent and nefarious connections and roots.  The past few years have been heavy, and the past several months have worn me down considerably.   After awhile I realized I have not heard from God personally in quite some time – longer than usual.  In fact, the darkness of the hole I was in had swallowed the light and I have been scanning to see and hear God.  I have been desperate for some sort of balance to the dismal future I see before humanity.

From my journal entry:  I have been crying out to God for weeks upon weeks now.  I have not been able to see, hear, or perceive Him.  I have been in a shadow, a place I couldn’t understand or discern rightly.  I have been looking for God – straining to hear Him.  The blackness of this world – the corrupt state of our nation – the seeming lostness of my children – all of it has taken its toll and I have been in a dismal, dark place.  I have been looking, looking, looking for Him.  Where is He right now?  What is He doing?  What is He thinking?  How can I join Him if I don’t know where He is?  What He’s doing?  Has my soul become polluted from the cesspools I’ve been mortified by?  Has my heart gotten hardened by the depravity of our society and the growing cynicism in my heart?  Is He upset with me because my faith is so weak right now?  I have been watching and reporting on the darkness for so long now, have I become unable to see what He, the Light, is doing?  These have been some of the questions haunting me that I have been echoing to my God.

And sentiments like this have been my continual prayer before God for weeks upon weeks now, in between tasks, when I lie down at night and rise in the morning. 

I have the gift of faith, so faith comes easy for me.  I usually have enough faith for me and whatever community is around me.  I have no problem believing God.  Yet in November I confided to a couple of my best friends that I had never known my faith to be so weak.  I set myself to see what was the root.  I set myself before God.

I’ve been waiting.  And waiting. 

It got better as I set myself to read His Word more consistently, to set aside time to meditate and just be before Him.  But I still hadn’t heard from Him.  I’ve learned over the years how to posture myself to see and/or hear God when I need to.  I’m used to seasons of silence.  It doesn’t bother me, because I’ve learned He speaks and moves faithfully.  I’ve learned how to wait upon Him and wait for Him.  This was different.  This time was not like the rest.  It was nothingness.  Not a silence as in He wasn’t speaking, but a nothingness as in is He even there? 

Then Friday night, I was going to be alone again because Bill had to work late again.  I threw some leftovers in the oven and sat by the fire to eat them around 8:30pm.  As usual, I am talking to God on the in-betweens of thoughts and actions.  I sat down cross-legged in my chair before the fire, the plate on my lap, continued the last thought I had before Him, and as I picked up my fork to take a bite He said, “I’m right here, Michelle.”

He interrupted me, and I stopped, fork mid-air.  It’s been quite awhile that I’ve been looking for Him so I wondered if my mind was playing tricks on me, if maybe I said it to myself to comfort myself….  (Though I wouldn’t say it like that, and it interrupted my own thoughts enough to startle me.)

The next morning was Christmas Eve morning, and I awoke at 5:58am with the following dream (see excerpt). 

I got out of bed, went to the living room and built a fire.  I sat there silently.  Everything faded.  Every other person in my life faded so far in the background I couldn’t see them anymore (though I knew they were there), and it was just me and God.  [Almost like it used to be but also like it is now and should be.]

I was cognizant at that moment of just me and God.

There were no real thoughts at that time.  No words.  No prayers.  I half-expected Him to speak but thought that He probably wouldn’t.  This morning as I sat by the early fire and all the world faded to the background, I heard it again, “I’m right here, Michelle.”

He’s right here…..

I began talking with Him about the dream, and He began showing me some things.  [It would take the next three days to unpack different parts of it and what they meant, which I’ll share in a minute.]  I was at that place where it was still me and God – that “I’m right here, Michelle” place.  And I saw the landscape of the dream (and I use dream lightly here), and thought how I needed that place of the dream, that place unscathed by man, and Psalm 91 came to me…

 “He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty…”

Abide.  Abide.  Abide.

                The key.

       I must abide, dwell, live in the secret place….

In the dream, Bill symbolized Christ and we were walking and talking in the spiritual domain, in the spiritual terrain.  It was untouched by man for as far as I could see.  It was peace and safety and rest.  I was telling Bill/Christ the burdens of my heart, the questions I had, the weight I was carrying.  But it couldn’t touch me there.  I was safe there.  I was at peace there.  I was happy there.

Abide.  Abide.  Abide.  This is where I must abide, the secret place.  The place untouched by man.

I was so happy there that I had the conscious thought of building a reprieve there.  I knew I couldn’t live there because it was detached from my responsible life, but I knew I could go there.  I thought about how we would build it and with what. 

As I sat there with the Lord, the whole Psalm unfolded before me. 

I know there are many facets to the truths and promises in this Psalm, but a couple things struck me:  “NO EVIL SHALL BEFALL YOU….no plague come near your tent.”

The promise of THAT alone, the surety and assuredness in it are overwhelming.  If God is my dwelling place – the place where I live, where I abide – evil cannot befall me.  The plague cannot enter my home.

Our love for God, for Christ, puts us in a position that safeguards our vulnerability.  For so  long now, decades, I have felt secure and not afraid for my life – almost assured nothing could touch me apart from the will of God.  I couldn’t tell you why I was sure harm (in the form of evil kind of harm) could not touch me.  I just knew it – felt it in my bones.  In some ways it felt like an invincible sort of spirit.  I didn’t tempt evil to come get me by putting myself in deliberately precarious positions, I just didn’t fear evil.

It’s not that I was safe or impervious to struggle or hardship or pain or any number of situations that happen just from being a human and living on this earth.  I’m not talking about being spared from such like that.  There are various kinds of harm, hurts, and pains.  I want to be clear here.  I have just always felt certain forms of evil I was immune to – like they couldn’t touch me – only would I see the evil around me, but not personally on me.

This Psalm explains that which I’ve felt as my reality.  It may be happening all around me; I may see it with my own two eyes, but it will not touch me. 

And this matters.  This matters a great deal to me.  Because I spend a significant portion of my waking hours studying the works of evil in our society and in our world.  I have been disturbed by the implications of human cloning, transhumanism, and Artificial Intelligence.  The impact and capabilities of the new technologies to control human thought and action through nanoparticles injected (or even swallowed in food, water or air) and using cellular, wireless and Bluetooth technology to employ such, has mortified me.  What chance does humanity have over these schemes?  People can be infected unwillingly and unwittingly.  What precaution or shield do we have for THAT??

As I sat before the Lord and this Psalm came back to me, I marveled at the provision of God.  God is able.  God is willing.  All of this destruction – weather modification, bioengineered pandemics, transhumanism, mind control – is not outside the sphere of God’s sovereignty.  And He will protect WHOM from it??  He who sets his love upon God.

Selah

We will see and know the SALVATION – saving from harm or destruction – of the Almighty.

What a promise!  What a glorious, glorious promise! 

“I’m right here, Michelle.”

I’m not a god far off.  I’m right here.

The Spirit helped me understand the other pieces of the dream after this.  Anytime Ken Ellis is mentioned in my dreams, it’s how God signals that it’s a direct word from God.  [long personal story, but there’s a reason for this – also, his name means “royal oath, mouthpiece of God” – another way God underscores for me to pay attention]

In the dream I’m told of an account Ken told about a date in the 1800s where apparently the world was in a state of despair.  As he was telling me in the dream I could actually see (like watching a movie) a sidewalk scene where there were people in 1800s period clothing walking.  The countenance of the people were lifted in a noticeable and measurable way when they encountered someone who smiled and was happy.  Bill (Christ) said, “Maybe we’re missing it, Michelle.”  This was my course correction.

Be in the moment with those you’re with.  The despair and heaviness in the earth for those who endeavor righteousness is tangible.  There’s a growing despair over the wickedness of the days of Lot we’re in.  [actually read and contemplate 2 Peter 2:4-10]  My stiletto moment in the dream was this moment:  “Maybe we’re missing it Michelle”.  I can’t recapture the whole monologue Bill (Christ) told of the Ken Ellis message of a century or two ago, but its essence has stayed with me plainly.  We carry the hope of Christ within us.  The joy of the Lord is our strength.  This is our weapon in the midst of depravity and its ensuing despair.

We are kept by abiding in the secret place of the Most High, under the shadow of the Almighty.  Because we love God and have set our hearts upon Him, He delivers us from the wickedness around us.  The bioengineered weapons the enemy is using, the nanoparticles of control the enemy is deploying, the technology that invades our spheres, these are not pervious if we are abiding in the secret place.  It can’t get to us, and we are filled with joy and gratitude for the provision of our King for our defense.  That joy manifests in our peace in a world of conflict and turmoil.  That joy can be passed to those around us in despair.  Our attitudes, our spirits, can help those around us.

The only thing I saw in the scenery of my dream that was man-made was an unmarked rancher’s arch that was broken at the top right.  In the dream I marveled at how it was still standing and why it hadn’t fallen because of its brokenness.  The Spirit told me it represented the institutions of man and its infrastructure.  Just like I know today that the institutions of man are broken and I cannot understand how they are still standing.

God is a personal God.  He speaks to us where we are.  That was in my dream to show me God knows my heart, has heard my questions.  Maybe I’ll get the answer and maybe I won’t.  But He has heard and He spoke my heart back to me. 

There were other things He spoke to me about through that dream, but that was the essence I wanted to share publicly (and there are other parts of the dream I didn’t share).  I thought there may be others who fight despair, who have wondered where God is, who have questions, who are seeking….  Maybe it will help someone else.  He’s right here. 

If He’s silent on the battlefront right now, He’s not absent.  I think He’s calling His children to abide in the secret place, to secure the protections and provisions that come from that intimate relationship with our Creator and Father.  I think He’s telling us to carry the hope of Christ to those around us, to smile, to share our joy and our hope, our faith and our peace, to lift others out of that place of heaviness and despair, of fear and doubt, even though the world may be in darkness.  We are not, and we represent the One who saves.